Brother who insist on maintaining ur Haram pre-marital relationships... If u really TRULY love her, you'd want what's best for her. And what's best for is not in this world... What's best for her is in the next life: salvation from the fire of hell and entrance into d gardens of paradise. But by doing what u're doing with her, u're putting her (and yourself) at risk to enter d fire of Hell. If u TRULY love her, you'd
(A) man up & ask 4 her hand in marriage (and if her parents say no, you'd end d relationship) or
(B) you'd just end d relationship.
It may hurt, but nothing could hurt more than punishment in Hellfire and d displeasure of Allah, so end ur Haram relationship 4 d sake of Allah. If u TRULY love her, u wouldn't be bringing her closer to the Hellfire.