I have repented many times to God and apologised.

Does that mean God does not forgive?

When I was younger I was a fairly good person, however I did talk carelessly.

When my uncle had terminal cancer, I was going through a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics and I would say "I want him to die" when arguing with my dad. Eventually he died. But I did not mean it, I was mad.

I also said to my mum "I want you to have cancer and die", a few years later she has now been diagnosed as "terminally ill".

I have said to the following people KR, TC, RF that I am happy that their parent (2 were father, 1 grandmother) is dead during an argument/frustration of what they did to be/what I thought that they did to me.

I said to another girl RD, in an argument/angry because of what she did to me, I said to her "you will die young" because she has sickle cell. Also, I told another female (during my period of madness) that her mother will die young.

I was age 19 - 20 when all of this happened, I am 23 now and would NEVER say anything like that under the age of 19 or over the age of 20 - I was going through a mental health breakdown and although it is no excuse I was mad and did not really mean it.
I have done so many "good" things and was always known as a good person, just that I had a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics / going to a psychiatric hospital and that is when I said those things.

I repent to GOD and to you my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Can God forgive me? Because now my one and only mother has terminal cancer, and my life in general is just struggle.

Help me please.

igbolondon93:
I have repented many times to God and apologised.

Does that mean God does not forgive?

When I was younger I was a fairly good person, however I did talk carelessly.

When my uncle had terminal cancer, I was going through a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics and I would say "I want him to die" when arguing with my dad. Eventually he died. But I did not mean it, I was mad.

I also said to my mum "I want you to have cancer and die", a few years later she has now been diagnosed as "terminally ill".

I have said to the following people KR, TC, RF that I am happy that their parent (2 were father, 1 grandmother) is dead during an argument/frustration of what they did to be/what I thought that they did to me.

I said to another girl RD, in an argument/angry because of what she did to me, I said to her "you will die young" because she has sickle cell. Also, I told another female (during my period of madness) that her mother will die young.

I was age 19 - 20 when all of this happened, I am 23 now and would NEVER say anything like that under the age of 19 or over the age of 20 - I was going through a mental health breakdown and although it is no excuse I was mad and did not really mean it.
I have done so many "good" things and was always known as a good person, just that I had a mental health breakdown that led to me taking anti-psychotics / going to a psychiatric hospital and that is when I said those things.

I repent to GOD and to you my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Can God forgive me? Because now my one and only mother has terminal cancer, and my life in general is just struggle.

Help me please.

So sorry about your mother state... She will recover.
At least you have learnt that words have power... You will not make such vocal error again. Never!

You owe no one perfection. You made a mistake. You feel sorry, you asked God for forgiveness. He does forgive. You have to forgive yourself and move on.
God loves you still as ever before

mental breakdown

Glad you still have some senses remaining, just waka by yourself go Yaba left. And pls remember to take your belongings cos you are to stay there for atleast 4 to 5 years.

Use that your mouth to heal her now. Shebi your mouth na razor blade!

The power of life and death is in the tongue,use that same tongue to tell your mother that she will get over that illness and live to see her grand children.

this way you will be speaking positivity into you life and that of your mother.

Michellekabod:

So sorry about your mother state... She will recover.
At least you have learnt that words have power... You will not make such vocal error again. Never!

You owe no one perfection. You made a mistake. You feel sorry, you asked God for forgiveness. He does forgive. You have to forgive yourself and move on.
God loves you still as ever before

like ur comment sis!!

Lemme juz keep kwayet, dis one shu not goan gimme curse.... Bro follow davash advice

You were just a bi-polic patient and nothing more....hence you 've asked God for mercy He 'll certainly forgive you but inoder for that forgiveness to erase whatsover damnation your mouth might have brought to yourself will strongly depend on you forgiving yourself and leading a new life in christ....there's NO sin God can't forgive but atimes the weight of the sin might still come knocking for vengeance....

u have a prophetic gift.
cele church need u, u will b very useful to dem.

u have a prophetic gift.
cele church need u, u will b very useful

Only few mad people would admit they are/were mad oh! The way you keep saying "I was mad" is kinda funny though.... But just give yourself time, everything will be good. Atleast, You've taken the first step; knowing and admitting your mistakes. Moreover, you were "mad", so don't be too hard on yourself.