Anonymous
Anonymous
Updated Dec 24, 2017



Men. Men scare me The kind of men I met in my time as a young prostitute.
I met decent men who would pay & do as much discussed. I met cheap men who would haggle beforehand, and after. Scared men who wanted to lose virginities. Scary men who would get off by hitting & cursing me. Men who were not attracted to their wives. Men who just wanted someone to comfort them. Men with weird fantasies. None of them scared me.
What scared me were the other kind of urges. Men who wanted me to pretend that I was their daughter, niece, or just a random underage girl. It made me sick to the stomach but I did all those things. Because I thought if it weren't for a barely adult prostitute like me, they would do these things to actual children. And the kind of things they did and said to me during those role plays, I can't imagine even an adult woman being able to handle that.
I have met men who wanted me to act like they were raping me. I did that too all the while being scared of the woman they actually had in mind. They didn't just want to 'bone' their classmate/coworker/friend/relative. They actually wanted to sexual harass her in the sickest way. Sometimes even their own wives. I had a regular who was engaged. He would pretend I was his fiancée & do the sickest things. He told me he can't wait to get access to his fiancé after the wedding. Once he stopped seeing me, I can't help wondering what sorry state that poor girl was pushed into by her unknowing parents. Another man gloated about something heinous he had done to his pregnant daughter in law, and how she would never speak up against it because of 'good' family values.
And these men weren't exceptions, and obvious criminals and creeps. It was literally every second guy. And they were harmless looking men with decent jobs and families. 'nice' guys who women and other men would respect and trust. My experience has shown me the reality of sexual predators. Paedophiles and rapists aren't uncommon and isolated from the society. They are parents, relatives, friends and employers. My blood boils everytime a victim comes forward & someone says 'Was she decently dressed?' / 'Did she turn him on?'. I get chills down my spine everytime I see a child acting wary of a person or place. I feel scared for my friends everytime they turn someone's advances down, or even accept them. I wonder how rampant sexual assault would be if it weren't for the law.
I have learnt paedophilia and rape aren't about sex. It's about ego ,power and control over the victim.
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EDIT : Thank you for the love and blessings, good people. I'm in a much better place in life now. To those worried about sampling bias, I'm sorry if my first attempt wasn't clear enough. I'm not saying that 'every second man' in your area's population is like that. I'm saying men like that not the rare & obvious specimens. They could be your childhood friend or your uncle, and you would hardly know. Two of the men I remember to have visited me for paedophilic urges bumped into me much later in life. One was a reputed dentist and another a librarian in a school. And no, not all men who visited me knew they were in the wrong. Some just hadn't found the chance yet, some the guts, and some were just scared of the consequences. Men who fantasized abusing women, most of them had already done things. And it isn't about a harmless fleating thought or consensual roleplay like the BDSM community. They had urges regular & strong enough to act them out with a dummy(me). Considering the men who visited the women in my area were the only men ever to have such thoughts, it was still a number big enough to scare.
I don't know about you, but if someone has 'mere' strong fantasies to sexually violate a child/woman they know till they die of the pain, I wouldn't ever trust them alone.
Just.. Listen to kids when they want to avoid a person or place. Listen to your gut when a trustworthy & charming man/woman starts wanting to be alone with your child or you. Never ignore micro expressions and lingering glances. Be careful for red flags before you allow yourself to be vulnerable with someone.. But.. What can we do when even some parents have incestuous paedophilic urges.. Just.. God bless humanity.
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