Well I don’t think any one will read this but I just feel like sharing.
Life has been a living hell for me, sometimes I wish I was never born, I wish I could just find the courage to take my own life because what’s the point?
Your parent (mother) treats you like crap, how can a mother insult her child and even threaten to curse that child, I feel very unfortunate but I think it’s part of my life.

I don’t know what a Mother’s love is, well I’ve never felt it, if your mum loves you please hold her tight cos for me I’ve been shown nothing but hate, she singled me out of my other siblings and verbally abuse me all the time, makes me feel less of a person. Oh she gave birth to me yes she owns me!! (Her words exactly).

I’m in my feelings so it might seem like I’m typing rubbish but here’s my story.

I come from a family of 8, I have 5 siblings...I’m the first female child, I have an elder brother, three sisters and a junior brother so yes I am the second child. Same father same mother, but i Lucy, I’ve always been treated badly by our so called mother and I don’t know why, maybe it’s because I’m the brightest among my other siblings I just don’t know why I’m always insulted and treated badly, she shows love and support to my siblings except me, my elder brother is her favorite (her first seed) daddy is never around.

As a kid I never gotten much from our mum, even when I ask for money she doesn’t give me anything but she gives my siblings, I didn’t see it as a big deal, this went on and on for a long time, I learnt how to save my money without having to rely on any parent. She doesn’t like me around her, she always tells me that I smell/stink and I should leave her side she says this in front of my siblings and they too start telling me that I smell and our mum will never correct them instead she gists with my other siblings, I still didn’t bother, I learnt to stay in my room on my own, I didn’t share anything with her cos I never got the chance, I smelled according to her, when I cook and clean she’ll say it’s not good enough, the food is tasteless but when my siblings do worse she advises them to try do better, when I pass with flying colors and show her, a straight face is all I get but when my siblings don’t get up to average she’ll praise them and hug them that they can do better after all success is a gradual thing she says....I have been on my own for a very long time even when I’m being insulted in front of my junior ones and they start insulting me in her presence she doesn’t do anything but when I try to discipline them she scolds me.

My so called mother calls me an outsider, she tells me she has every right to insult me and call me names, that she can do and undo
She gave birth to me so she has the right to disrespect me she says.

Whenever I try to explain that I’m tired or not feeling too well she calls me lazy, I do everything to please her but it’s not good enough
This story is long, but I have been through so much and yes I consider suicide a lot
I am tired of the verbal abuse and emotional blackmail I am 25 but not respected.

I wish I never had a mum
It’s really difficult having one and being treated like a slave it’s so wrong.
When I try to speak up she’ll call me rude
It’s really not fair.

I doubt if anyone would see this but this is part of my story and this is how I’ve been leaving for years, I don’t have a life!
Even when I try to make small money online I’m being choked with chores, I mean I have zero life.

Life is tiring for me
This is all I can share till next time

If you come across this and would love to share pls do

AFRICAN PARENTS ARE TOXIC!

u don't have to commit suicide. u have said it all African parents are toxic. in my own case, it is both parents. everything was OK before the pandemic. immediately I lost my job due to the pandemic, they started showing me the negative side of life.u just have to endure, till u get an offer that will take u out of the house. leave and never come back,only send money to them.

lolu2019:
u don't have to commit suicide. u have said it all African parents are toxic. in my own case, it is both parents. everything was OK before the pandemic. immediately I lost my job due to the pandemic, they started showing me the negative side of life.u just have to endure, till u get an offer that will take u out of the house. leave and never come back,only send money to them.

Hmmmm you’re absolutely right, making money and leaving this house is the way forward.
The pandemic really opened my eyes
I think staying at home for a long time can be bad

Thank you