‍‍‍How I Almost fell into the sin of Masturbation .

Going through some difficult situations, and haven prayed to God, I couldn't see any positive result. so like job - I felt God had abandoned me, and has chosen to watch me stuffer.

I did all I knew to do but no changes.
Only felt as if the situation was deteriorating, so I concluded that God knew about my predicament but chose to not to answer my prayers.
- I was bitter at heart, strong hatred suddenly grew in my heart towards God, and I lament greatly against him, and said unimaginable things that a child shouldn't say to his or her parent talk less of a creature saying such to his maker.

I blew hot - God is unjust, and as chosen to watch humans suffer while he does nothing to help them.
I then sympathized with those who calls themselves "atheist" and found out the reason some of them don't believe in God is not because they didn't understood spiritual things or couldn't comprehend how the world could be created.
they once believed in God but suddenly they discovered they hate this entity called "God" - the reason being difficult situations with no clear sign of help ever coming from him in whom they had hope.

Many became atheist because they felt when they needed God he never showed up, so they concluded that God is not real, or he is not concern with the affairs of men, or nothing like God ever existed in the first place.
God na scam, religion na wash, after death no heaven no hell, if I die I die be that.

But unfortunately and fortunately for me I had seen God before,
He even literally send me a blessing he promised in the scripture every day from the Spirit realm.

The realities of God are not alien to me, and I have had a taste of the supernatural realm.

I could bet with anything that God is not a man made idea, or some western propaganda to enslave men.
Spirits are real, Angels and demons are all around us hidden in the invisible watching the affairs of men,while the Spiritually blind man is not aware of their presence, influence and power over his or her life, society and destiny.

(if I should tell you what I know about the Spirit realm you may disbelief me or doubt)

So let's leave it at that level.

CONTINUATION -

so I was bitter against God because flesh Is bound to lament when it suffers, that is why the scriptures says - Romans 8:6-8
[6]For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
[7]Because the carnal mind is enmity against God; for it is not subject to the law of God, nor indeed can be.
[8]So then, those who are in the flesh cannot please God.

I was an ungrateful servant,
I choose not to remember the days the lord was good and gracious to ME.
I forgot his many unmerited favours.
And as Satan wanted job to do - I cursed God to his face, and called him unjust.

And in rebellion felt I needed to console my self by watching immoral images online
(but I never knew Satan desired to have me, and to sift me like wheat).
I was unwise.
I thought I was having my way on God, but never knew God wanted to uplift me, and Satan was jealous so he came to cut me off like he cut Adam off from the presence of God.
And I went ahead watched the unholy images in order to gratify my flesh against the wish of the Spirit.

I sinned against God and against my body as Satan had wanted, but Satan's main goal was to make me masturbate, but I had overcome that, and will always chose to overcome.

I watched immorality , was aroused in the flesh, and almost Masturbated, then I released sperm, and immediately my heart was filled with regrets.
- ho I fell, because I failed to discern that Satan was lurking at the corner, seeking the right opportunity to come into my life, having been pushed and locked out for long.
And he did found an opportunity - my refusal to pray a day before when I felt temptation was at the corner.
(pray for the gift of discernment)
I trusted in my strength and forget that the scriptures says Matthew 26:41
[41]Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

So brethren if you don't pray you will fall into temptation, and if you are not praying and couldn't perceive anything like temptation around you, then it means you are already in sin, and you need to rededicate your life to God afresh.

My problems were not God's fault.
My inability to procure solution wasn't God's fault either but mine .
God bounds himself with spiritual laws as to put himself in check,.
so unless you satisfy the law that governs the realm you want to gain access to in the Spirit, you can never gain access to that realm
.
You have to do it God's way and not your way.
Like a bank's security door, there are protocols to follow before the door would open or before you could gain access to the business center,
even so, the requirements of God's law must be met before he could be able to help us.
God is not a man, so he would not break his laws to help  you because you cried or because you are about to die.
His laws demands that for him to remain just he must not operate outside the requirements of his laws.

So we humans having no understanding, felt God doesn't care, or he doesn't not even exist like the atheist claimed.

God exist,interferes and shapes the affairs of men, and is willing to help, but could do so ONLY when you are in alignment with the just requirements of his laws.
(that his why God had to become man and die for the sin of mankind)
Why couldn't he just say "I forgive mankind for their sins instead of dying for them?

Because his laws demand that the wages of sin must be death, so even though he is God he had to die to fulfill the just requirements of the law. As it is written - Romans 8:3-4
[3]For what the law could not do in that it was weak through the flesh, God did by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, on account of sin: He condemned sin in the flesh,
[4]that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.


To be continued

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Beautiful. This is my story few days ago. The devil is cunny in deceit. O God more of your wisdom in our lives.

We need to watch and pray without ceasing

BE CAREFUL