Our finance lecturer emphasized that borrowing money for a burial was only done by fools and was bound to backfire. To have a terrible consequence on the living. I get it but I definitely will not call my parents fools, and what do you expect those found in the same situation to do anyway. Leave the dead to bury the dead, he said. Ridiculous. I do blame them though it's not like they've made excellent financial decisions in the past.
You can hence deduce from the above that we are broke. How broke? Terriblely broke. Indebt broke. And it doesn't help when you're going to school. University of Portharcourt to be precise and having to make do with very little from your parents (Not their fault I guess ). It's not like there are not those who basically train themselves. But in my own defence I don't have have any technical skills, what we call handwork.
I don't think i should delve into the reasons I don't have one, cause it's a long story. But the extra short version is either no money to learn or no time. In truth i may just be giving excuses. But really it's about the type of technical skills I want to learn either takes money which we don't have or time i don't have at that time ( please try to follow all these time talk, me sef i tire).
I know i haven't introduced myself, all these I'm 6 feet tall and handsome stuff. And I'm just rambling on, yes. Truthfully I don't know who I am, not in sense of name, height and all that.
No. I definitely know those stuff. But it's not like I'm going to tell you if I'm tall, short, dark or handsome anyway. It's just that I don't think those things really define a person. Ok I have to pause here. (Of course there are some against my theory, the mad man for example , he says a person's surname such as Dangote can influence who that person turns out to be ) I get it also but maybe that discussion is for another day.
Why should you care what I say, maybe it's because I need help to find out who I'm or maybe you need help to find out who you are and what you're capable of of. Either way growth is a pronouced possibility my story would have.
P.S This is not a diary. Even if it says so on the book I wrote this in. I would rather say it's a journal sort of, where i would be sharing life happenings (stuff that happens in my life of course ) not limited to and including ecounters with friends, lessons learnt, accidents, stupid stuff our lecturers frequently say, my relationship and sex life ( of course were such should happen), what i think about a lot of things in general and of course my sweetheart, football( generally just trolling arsenal fans ) kidding though football gist in general.
My aim. I don't really know. Maybe to create a space to converse and learn from other people's experience on how to navigate life. Maybe to find out who I am and help others do the same. I know I will be great. But the how is what I need to know.


So I'll be sharing this at least once a week maybe special episodes when something extraordinary happens. Should be Sunday night I guess so check me up every week.
Please leave a comment on whatever you think about this. Thanks see you next week......

Episode 2
Something's Fishy

This past week was super hectic on the mind, body and even spirit. I even did not get the chance to watch a match on a Saturday for God sake. One that had Chelsea (my choice club of course) facing a pissed man city side that needed revenge, a man utd loss to aston villa (to be truthful that one sweet me sha) cause all in all my game cut cause man utd couldn't even score.

On that note I'm really sorry I can't delve deeper or express myself about these matches as I didn't watch it. Would still love to hear you guys take on any of those matches in the comment section though. Don't worry I'll make it up to you guys.

Anyways Monday was the usual Monday, the smell of markets, pushing and shoving of passengers, berating conductors and cursing drivers all in the monotonous Monday commute to school. By the time I'm in class I'm already soaked in sweat and exhausted at the upcoming school day.

I beg to digress a bit due to an event that occurred in class or after class (Don't know were it falls under sef) a result of which I think the LOML is angry with me. (NB I don't think I'm the love of her life, and I don't think i know what love is, aside from maybe the actions of my mom and pops displaying the so said love of which i have no experience whatsoever with). So maybe I like her just a lot cause no matter how she destroys my self respect principles (story for another day if you guys remind me) I still can't cut her off like I do with other people.

Ok, So what happened?. Apparently my best friend female (Rina to be used in further events,who has disturbing me to resume school) and I were talking after our first class (holding hands unfortunately) when my crush, using a milder term perhaps should be safer (for my feelings) and an assumed name Angela approached us and jokingly removed Rina's hand from mine, attempting to converse with me, Rina sha removed her hand and touching her lower back slightly asked "what's up?" The said crush of mine actually told her to stop touching her like that cause she doesn't like being touched like that by girls (something's brewing of course, just that I was dumbstruck, lovestruck, whatever struck in my own defence and was busy smiling like an idiot at Angela). Rina simply replied "but if it was that guy touching you, you would be happy". Angela replied "yes, why not"( at this point I had come back to my senses and was actually worried about what was going on, but wait she actually said "that guy touching you" and angela had replied in the affirmative). Wahala I was confused, there was definitely something I was missing (I mean to find out by the way, FYI though, Angela has informed me on a number of occasions that she doesn't have a boyfriend), so I guess you can draw the same conclusion as I, the fact that i know nothing of what actually transpired.

Fast-forward to later in the evening to when I called Angela and mentioned that she wasn't fair to Rina cause she wasn't happy, she actually said both of us were mad( in her defence she says that a lot and I don't think she she means like Mad mad, or real madness) cause she was just joking and she can't roll with people like us who take that kind of stuff seriously. The stupid me as usual apologized (thinking back i think maybe I'm pretty stupid), anyways asked her how she was got a stiff response and quietly bounced or strategically retreated anyhow you see it.

I think I might be blind or bias as to what happened, but would love your take on the matter, maybe i could see things more clearly then.

In the spirit of Sunday cheerfulness i would like to inform you all that I saw my result the next day, year 2 1st semester to be precise, and it was horrible. Anyways I think the next episode, My Result, My Shame? tells a lot about who I'm. And truthfully I think the next episode which could be released today depends slot on the engagement i get on this one.

To clarify the shame part may or may not be related as much to my result as to what I did after i saw it. So see you guys maybe later today�.