I'm depressed. I have been like that for a while now. I won't lie I have thought about suicide several times. I have even gone to the extent of purchasing sniper but I still haven't build to courage to use it so as to end it all.

I feel like the whole world hates me and the world is better off without me. I don't feel loved from my family . They all see me as the black sheep of the family and I doubt they will miss me that much when I'm gone . I don't blame them I chase them all away with my crazy attitude.

Now I stay indoors in my room all day away from people, no girlfriends, no boyfriend . i feel less human. I wish i wasnt born . Now I'm hearing this voices again telling me to cross over to the side of the death, since the side of the living has rejected me. Every night I dream of death and how beautiful it is to die and be free from all worries.

My sisters keep sending me money thinking money will make me feel good. But money is not my problem. I have a fat bank account and I have absolutely no use for it. I sometimes spend days without eating just to suffer myself because I hate me.

Why do I hate myself ? I don't know
Why do I hate my family? I don't know
Why do I hate everybody? I don't know
Why do everybody hate me? I don't know

Probably , this is all in my head . but i can't seem to get it out. I wish I can over come this feeling but it keeps weighing me down more and I'm losing hope in life.
I need help.

You need someone to talk to. Someone who will listen and not judge you. The world would be a better place with you in it.

Why do you think your family don't love you?
You did say your sisters send you money probably from time to time.
If they didn't love you, would they even think of you, much less sending you money you probably didn't ask for?

Please, banish that evil thought from your head...

Always remember that you aren't alone in whatever you may be dealing with...but the good news is, most of the time, it only gets very rough before it begins to get better.

Keep on keeping on, please...

Money is not your problem.
Stop masturbation. Find a purpose. Love God and others. Give more.
Do giveaway here on NL.

Jenny1010:
I'm depressed. I have been like that for a while now. I won't lie I have thought about suicide several times. I have even gone to the extent of purchasing sniper but I still haven't build to courage to use it so as to end it all.

I feel like the whole world hates me and the world is better off without me. I don't feel loved from my family . They all see me as the black sheep of the family and I doubt they will miss me that much when I'm gone . I don't blame them I chase them all away with my crazy attitude.

Now I stay indoors in my room all day away from people, no girlfriends, no boyfriend . i feel less human. I wish i wasnt born . Now I'm hearing this voices again telling me to cross over to the side of the death, since the side of the living has rejected me. Every night I dream of death and how beautiful it is to die and be free from all worries.

My sisters keep sending me money thinking money will make me feel good. But money is not my problem. I have a fat bank account and I have absolutely no use for it. I sometimes spend days without eating just to suffer myself because I hate me.

Why do I hate myself ? I don't know
Why do I hate my family? I don't know
Why do I hate everybody? I don't know
Why do everybody hate me? I don't know

Probably , this is all in my head . but i can't seem to get it out. I wish I can over come this feeling but it keeps weighing me down more and I'm losing hope in life.
I need help.

What gender are you??

Jenny1010:
I'm depressed. I have been like that for a while now. I won't lie I have thought about suicide several times. I have even gone to the extent of purchasing sniper but I still haven't build to courage to use it so as to end it all.

I feel like the whole world hates me and the world is better off without me. I don't feel loved from my family . They all see me as the black sheep of the family and I doubt they will miss me that much when I'm gone . I don't blame them I chase them all away with my crazy attitude.

Now I stay indoors in my room all day away from people, no girlfriends, no boyfriend . i feel less human. I wish i wasnt born . Now I'm hearing this voices again telling me to cross over to the side of the death, since the side of the living has rejected me. Every night I dream of death and how beautiful it is to die and be free from all worries.

My sisters keep sending me money thinking money will make me feel good. But money is not my problem. I have a fat bank account and I have absolutely no use for it. I sometimes spend days without eating just to suffer myself because I hate me.

Why do I hate myself ? I don't know
Why do I hate my family? I don't know
Why do I hate everybody? I don't know
Why do everybody hate me? I don't know

Probably , this is all in my head . but i can't seem to get it out. I wish I can over come this feeling but it keeps weighing me down more and I'm losing hope in life.
I need help.

Like someone said, all you need is someone to listen without prejudice. Send me a Dm. Let's chat. I'm waiting for your Dm.

You have fat account balance and you're feeling depressed??
I no just understand.

Jenny1010:
I'm depressed. I have been like that for a while now. I won't lie I have thought about suicide several times. I have even gone to the extent of purchasing sniper but I still haven't build to courage to use it so as to end it all.

I feel like the whole world hates me and the world is better off without me. I don't feel loved from my family . They all see me as the black sheep of the family and I doubt they will miss me that much when I'm gone . I don't blame them I chase them all away with my crazy attitude.

Now I stay indoors in my room all day away from people, no girlfriends, no boyfriend . i feel less human. I wish i wasnt born . Now I'm hearing this voices again telling me to cross over to the side of the death, since the side of the living has rejected me. Every night I dream of death and how beautiful it is to die and be free from all worries.

My sisters keep sending me money thinking money will make me feel good. But money is not my problem. I have a fat bank account and I have absolutely no use for it. I sometimes spend days without eating just to suffer myself because I hate me.

Why do I hate myself ? I don't know
Why do I hate my family? I don't know
Why do I hate everybody? I don't know
Why do everybody hate me? I don't know

Probably , this is all in my head . but i can't seem to get it out. I wish I can over come this feeling but it keeps weighing me down more and I'm losing hope in life.
I need help.

I hope I’m not being too forward here; could you send a major percentage of the money in your account to me? You’ll be helping for a project that’s super important to me (I could explain it to you if you have 2 minutes after the transfer to stay alive).

This project of mine is everything I live for right now. It makes me happy, it has made me take daring adventures since April. Please say yes!

I hope God grants you safe passage into the Kingdom for this one last good deed you’re about to do to me, another creation of His

Op, it appears you culled this elsewhere or probably set it out to garner discussion and attention. If so or not so, I wonder why some of the questions posed to you weren't responded to if you ever wanted to be freed from the so-called depression and suicidal instinct.

Are you directly involved? Engage us so we can know where to start from in advising you..this life sweet and I hope you've been seeing many gracing the news page here after committing suicide.

You better know what you WISH! I've never heard there was a Red carpet reception for a suicide graduate in the world beyond, what we've heard and come to understand biblically is that it's even a worse offense with damnable retribution. If you kill yourself, we will drag you after that foolish act and in death, you'd wished you have managed the affairs better with optimism for a better day ahead as a result of a new found celestial understanding in death.

Waiting for your feedbacks and engaging responses.

Shalom.