Apologies for the long read.

So just today I had a reminisce about my life and what I have become and I must say it's kimd of a mixed feeling. Did I grow up callous or is it a normal thing.
Mind you I am about hitting mid 20s.

1. FRIENDSHIP
I usually don't get back along with most friends especially when we have had a misunderstanding. I can choose to feel like they don't exist anymore for life. And strangely it doesn't bother me.


2. RELATIONSHIP
I always get attracted to girls in a sexual way and I ensure it's just that alone. This is so because I do see most girls, if not all, as insensible, mostly confused and indecisive and this really makes me feel they are not worth it. I only make out with them for what my body wants and nothing more but deception and lies. At the end, I get tired and leave.


3. RELIGION
I don't believe in Churches and their pastors. There is this inward hatred I have for them. I believe they are thieves and hypocrites who play mind games with their members on matters of hell and tithing just to make them submissive. These members turns out to become so irrational and most times will make reference to what their pastors told them (and not what the Bible says) at any point they are taking a decision. I believe that there is God Almighty. Our conscience is our judge. More of agnostic tho. I don't go to church anymore because I get angry seeing hypocrites who will still go back home that day to commit fornication and all sorts of evil.


4. TEMPERAMENT
I have seen my temperament move from Choleric 60% and Melancholy 40% to Choleric 99% and Melancholy 1%. Sometimes I feel I have become the most heartless human being on the planet. I found out that I don't get emotional to what most people find very touching. Rather I find it to be annoying. For example, I saw a video on Facebook titled "I called my ex" or so. I couldn't even finish the video because it was so annoying seeing a grown up man and woman acting like fools on my phone screen and portray no life meaning as to what information they are trying to pass to me. However, I was shocked to see the comments by people (about 90% of them) saying they find it very touching and all that.

5. GENERALLY
Be that as it may, I don't hurt people particularly or get into fight with them. If I find out you get me pissed off or maybe betrayed me or something, I find a way to stay away from you or ghost you for life without ever looking back. I won't confront you or anything like that be you a girl or a boy. And that is final.

One guy, a friend at a point who I have ghosted, always asked my about a girl he knows too well that I used to be very close to. But then, I really don't care because I know she called at some point after waiting for me to get back to her after about a year or so but I didn't pick up. Telling this guy what happened won't solve anything, so I simply told him that I am no longer in a relationship with her.

6. CAREER
What I do most times is coding( I work remotely for a US company) and trading cryptocurrency. These two things are the most important things to me aside from my family and some relatives.

CONCLUSION
What has really happened to me?
I barely call anyone who may consider themselves very close to me. I barely chat on Whatsapp. I like being on my own most times because I am more of an introvert. What I do with most of my time is coding.

I think life has taught me the hard way to live. Because in conclusion, I don't have unnecessary headaches from anybody. Nothing bothers me about anyone except for my family members and some relatives. I feel I have changed. Change is always constant they say, but I don't know if I have become a monster.

Sorry for the long read but am I still a human?

No..you are a mango

Guy I'm exactly like you!!!

Come and teach me coding and crypto to balance up

i think this happens to 90% of young youths with that age range 20-30's....

Regarding relationship here, same goes for me and I believe the foundation wasn't built well...

is either you grew us as an introvert or you did get close to children at your age level....

I can't even count my friends cos I have non cos of the same issue you said...

No gf sef,the few that was into me said I don't call or even care to know about how they feel whereas them too no dey call..

My anger level is quite okay for me but people around me says I should bring it down...

Life No Easy sha

Are you the first son?

There is nothing wrong with you.
You are probably a ♑ Capricorn.

czarr:
There is nothing wrong with you.
You are probably a ♑ Capricorn.

I'm not sure it has to do with Zodiac sha...

Me na ♌ Leo

Though they have similar traits

Uzomacharles:


I'm not sure it has to do with Zodiac sha...

Me na ♌ Leo

Though they have similar traits

okay.
Yea

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BUHARI'S EFFECT

Bouncing2:
Guy I'm exactly like you!!!

Come and teach me coding and crypto to balance up

There are lots of Languages to pick from. But first, you have to know what you love doing (Mobile development, Data science, Web developer etc). Afterwards, you pick the best languages for them.

For the trading aspect, I don't know who you are (crypto is illegal in this part of the world) but believe me, if you are genuine, you can pay YouTube a visit. Some Nigerians guys have done justice to most questions any newbie could possibly ask.

Uzomacharles:
i think this happens to 90% of young youths with that age range 20-30's....

Regarding relationship here, same goes for me and I believe the foundation wasn't built well...

is either you grew us as an introvert or you did get close to children at your age level....

I can't even count my friends cos I have non cos of the same issue you said...

No gf sef,the few that was into me said I don't call or even care to know about how they feel whereas them too no dey call..

My anger level is quite okay for me but people around me says I should bring it down...

Life No Easy sha

Are you the first son?

Interesting. No I am not the First son.

czarr:
There is nothing wrong with you.
You are probably a ♑ Capricorn.

Aries ♈ Actually

LIGHTHEARTED0:
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BUHARI'S EFFECT

It's not Buharis Effect, by God's grace I earn more than a Bank Manager in a month.

KlausMichaelson:


It's not Buharis Effect, I earn more than a Bank Manager in a month.

don't sweat it,if you are in a developed world where everything is working your mentality will changed for good

LIGHTHEARTED0:



don't sweat it,if you are in a developed world where everything is working your mentality will changed for good

So in essence, you are telling me that my mentality changed for bad?

KlausMichaelson:


There are lots of Languages to pick from. But first, you have to know what you love doing (Mobile development, Data science, Web developer etc). Afterwards, you pick the best languages for them.

For the trading aspect, I don't know who you are (crypto is illegal in this part of the world) but believe me, if you are genuine, you can pay YouTube a visit. Some Nigerians guys have done justice to most questions any newbie could possibly ask.

Can you DM my email.
I'd like to have you on WhatsApp

Bouncing2:


Can you DM my email.
I'd like to have you on WhatsApp

No don't bother, I won't get back to you. This is a faceless forum and I really would love to keep it that way.