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Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by TheRealOwner(m): 3:21am On Apr 09, 2022
Yes, you read the title correctly. PS. I am here only to read mature inputs and comments from people who have passed through similar situations or have experience in what I want to talk about. If you have nothing tangible to contribute, turn back now and enjoy your life.

My Backstory
I was born and raised in a church that is basically a copy cat of Deeper Life in terms of doctrine, worship, lifestyle and conduct. No earrings, tattoos, jeans, etc. If you are familiar with deeper life, you know what I'm talking about.

There's one major difference though, there's a strong emphasis on the activities of witches, wizards, household enemies and praying against them ( fall down and die prayers). This part will become very important later.

Childhood & formative years
I don't want to reveal too many details here, but let's just say my family is a prestigious one in the church, with both parents in the workforce and Dad being an especially loyal, vocal and committed pastor. He can do and undo for the ministry in terms of giving, sacrificing his time, coordinating activities and so on. Naturally, there was this obvious pressure to follow his footsteps and I can say I was already toeing that path, from when I was intelligent enough to read, to my teenage years.

I was already very proficient in biblical stories and could the KJV word for word, chapter and verse without blinking from a around age 7 - 8, something that got me a lot of love and respect in the church. I remember a particular incident in my primary school where my class teacher wanted to show me off. He entered me into a Bible quiz meant for people 2 classes above mine without prior notice and let's just say I didn't disappoint him or my class. First place wink

I never shyed away from youth programs, evangelisms, sharing handbills of our upcoming crusades and programs, staying after service to clean the church, etc. I also tried my very best to live a holy life, following peace with all men and holiness, and presenting my body as a living sacrifice. I never hungout with fellow boys in my class, as I saw them as sinners and the things they were doing as things that will compromise my salvation.

As I grew older and older, I began to realise that there were so many different types of churches and doctrines they believed and practiced, which were different from ours.

Our G.O and my dad used to criticize so many of these churches, showing us from the Bible why some of their beliefs and practices were wrong and how they were hellbound. I believed all of it hook, line and sinker.

Anytime Education took me out of the home, I always attended DLCF, (deeper life campus fellowship) as I felt at ease with their doctrines and manner of service, almost 100% same thing I have known and experienced from childhood. This was directly recommended to us by the G.O so I just followed suit.

The turning points
I gained admission into one of the most competitive schools and courses in Nigeria, a feat my dad calls a miracle till date, due to some circumstances that happened after he prayed for it to happen. It was legal admission though, I beat the cutoff mark set.

Just before I resumed, I had become more and more interested in the baptism of the Holy Spirit, with the evidence of speaking in tongues. I couldn't speak in tongues up to this point.

A few days after I resumed in my hostel, a member of a church I had never heard of was on evangelism. I always took my time to listen to and even entertain people like this, because I know the amount of bravery it takes and what they face from mockers, abusers and those who just want to argue, in order to encourage them and learn even more points to use when I was going on mine.

He told me he could pray for me and I will start to speak in tongues. I was shocked and flatly refused. What I had been taught was Salvation > Water Baptism > Sanctification > Infilling / indwelling of the Holy Ghost.

He then quoted the case of Cornelius' household (Acts 10: 44 - 46) and those who eventually became the elders of the Ephesian church when they first met Paul ( Acts 19: 1 - 7)

He quoted these as instances of instant Holy Ghost baptism, without the Sanctification part and I was very baffled. I simply didn't know how to respond...

CONTINUED
That really really sparked something in me, as I had never seen that perspective before. A few days after this, a member of another popular church that I would have classified as 'worldly church' came on evangelism and asked to pray for Holy Spirit baptism. Since I knew more this time, I decided to give it a try and he prayed for me and asked me to speak to tongues. Nothing happened. I was disappointed. There was nothing they could tell me again.

I woke up in the night about 3 days later and I decided to try again. I spoke in tongues for the first time and I was elated. Is this what I had been told could take years and years of crying out to God with brokenness of heart and spiritual hunger? Was it really that easy?

I had elevated spiritually and I was so happy.

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Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by TheRealOwner(m): 3:21am On Apr 09, 2022
LIFE AS A FRESHER
Somehow, by a twist of fate ( lol it's not fate, I discovered they usually targeted freshers in uni like I was), the first guy came around more and more.

He would invite me for their Tuesday campus fellowship services and I was always eager to go. Sometimes he took me there (paid the T-fare), sometimes I trekked, sometimes we trekked together.

Now, I really don't want to mention the name of this ministry coz of personal reasons but I found their services so enthralling. Service started with 5 - 7 mins of praying in tongues, then followed by songs I had never heard before, singing about Jesus, the Church, the authority we have and so on. Service usually ended with the ministration of the spirit (though not always). The pastor would call out cases of sickness and other things and pray for them, with people falling down and sometimes full blown cases of people 'manifesting' (you'll know what I am talking about if you have ever been in a Yoruba church that conducts deliverance sessions)

This church was not anything like where I was coming from, with ladies rocking make-up, trousers, short gowns and skirts, hair attachments and wigs, etc. But I ignored all that because of my encounter and the fact that their sermons were so spiritually deep and focused on so much more than sin, holiness and sanctification, and God's blessings and commandments as I was used to, and always backed up with new testament verses and very detailed explanations. I was always taking notes and learning at such a great pace. I was always eager to learn and grow my knowledge.

Meanwhile, all this time, I was going to other churches too to learn as much as I could and have as much experience. Especially DLCF and a newly formed fellowship consisting of members of my church from home. Our highest attendance here was 14 members on the day of my freshers welcome and a regular Sunday service will see us at around 7 - 10 members and Thursdays, we'll be 4 - 6 people, so everybody knew everybody and I was so regular in all services.

I would go to DLCF on Mondays, the new interesting one on Tuesdays, the fellowship of my church from home on Thursdays and Sundays. I attended DLCF's special Congress programs then too and a few other special programs by other churches I can't remember now. All my close friends in the department were DLCF members as we were so alike in mindset, behaviour and other things.

As a result of all my churchiness, I actually didn't didn't study my academic books so much and I almost failed 3 core courses in my first semester then ( 2 Physics, 1 chem), although I passed all others well via crash reading. I remember those 3 so well because the school set it up that we'll do all 3 within 2 days and the Chemistry was 4 units. I actually fell really sick and got bloated after the day we finished our exams. I remember praying to God to please help me pass the Chemistry coz it's a 4unit course and was the toughest one in the whole of year 1. I got 10/30 in the test and fell into a gutter while coming back from viewing the results coz I was lost in thought. My Jean trousers actually tore because of the way I fell and a deeper life friend of mine gave me his labcoat to cover my embarrassment. I had started wearing Jeans at this point because of I now knew it wasn't bad.

I read so much for the exams but it was mostly crash and fearful reading. I got exactly 50 in that Chemistry, 52 and 58 in the other Physics courses, while people I was in the same hostel as were sweeping 80s and 90s

When first semester results came out, I realized I was bottom 20 in a class of 108. (I almost typed something that would have given away the school cheesy)

During the first semester break, my mom noticed I was speaking in tongues now and she was very happy for me, she didn't ask me when and how.
I didn't allow my dad rest that time, I was always asking him doctrinal questions, why we do this and don't do this in our church, what our core doctrines were and the history of our church. My dad was surprised I had taken to questioning and had so much interest at examining the core beliefs I was brought up with. This part will become very important later as he will disown a year from this break and have absolutely nothing to do with me. I will explain when due


Second semester, I evaluated myself better and was a much better academic student and I was rewarded with a very dramatic rise in my CGPA. Now I was part of the top 70, which still isn't great but a good improvement from bottom 20. I had As all through second semester, except for one Physics were I had 68 and A starts from 70. The most painful score ever. I also had 60s in the 2 chemistry courses of 2nd semester (why always chemistry lol)

Something important happened in second semester. I stopped attending DLCF and focused on just the one from home and the one which will eventually became my church and led to me being disowned by Dad and the main church at home and branded a disgrace and backslider. I will explain when due

Also, the brother who first explained things to me had to go for his I.T, he then 'handed me over' to someone else who was in the same department with me but a year my senior. This guy was even more zealous than the first one. We had so many conversations on doctrine, salvation by faith, the signs of them that believe ( Mark 16: 15 - 18), the great commission, hellfire, eternal salvation, events and stories of the Law and Prophets, the book of Acts, Paul's epistles, etc

The initial cracks
I didn't know it then, but what I would later have issues with started to manifest right from when the new guy took over and would be explaining theology and doctrine to me... To be continued


The day is still young and I will continue the rest later at night. I'll try my best to complete everything today, as I have a lot to do and I will do my best to complete it before Sunday when many people will come to religious section

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Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by TheRealOwner(m): 3:28am On Apr 09, 2022
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Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by TheRealOwner(m): 3:28am On Apr 09, 2022
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Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by Artiiclebeast: 5:03am On Apr 09, 2022
TheRealOwner:
Yes, you read the title correctly. PS. I am here only to read mature inputs and comments from people who have passed through similar situations or have experience in what I want to talk about. If you have nothing tangible to contribute, turn back now and enjoy your life.

My Backstory
I was born and raised in a church that is basically a copy cat of Deeper Life in terms of doctrine, worship, lifestyle and conduct. No earrings, tattoos, jeans, etc. If you are familiar with deeper life, you know what I'm talking about.

There's one major difference though, there's a strong emphasis on the activities of witches, wizards, household enemies and praying against them ( fall down and die prayers). This part will become very important later.

Childhood & formative years
I don't want to reveal too many details here, but let's just say my family is a prestigious one in the church, with both parents in the workforce and Dad being an especially loyal, vocal and committed pastor. He can do and undo for the ministry in terms of giving, sacrificing his time, coordinating activities and so on. Naturally, there was this obvious pressure to follow his footsteps and I can say I was already toeing that path, from when I was intelligent enough to read, to my teenage years.

I was already very proficient in biblical stories and could the KJV word for word, chapter and verse without blinking from a around age 7 - 8, something that got me a lot of love and respect in the church. I remember a particular incident in my primary school where my class teacher wanted to show me off. He entered me into a Bible quiz meant for people 2 classes above mine without prior notice and let's just say I didn't disappoint him or my class. First place wink

I never shyed away from youth programs, evangelisms, sharing handbills of our upcoming crusades and programs, staying after service to clean the church, etc. I also tried my very best to live a holy life, following peace with all men and holiness, and presenting my body as a living sacrifice. I never hungout with fellow boys in my class, as I saw them as sinners and the things they were doing as things that will compromise my salvation.

As I grew older and older, I began to realise that there were so many different types of churches and doctrines they believed and practiced, which were different from ours.

Our G.O and my dad used to criticize so many of these churches, showing us from the Bible why some of their beliefs and practices were wrong and how they were hellbound. I believed all of it hook, line and sinker.

Anytime Education took me out of the home, I always attended DLCF, (deeper life campus fellowship) as I felt at ease with their doctrines and manner of service, almost 100% same thing I have known and experienced from childhood. This was directly recommended to us by the G.O so I just followed suit.

The turning points
I gained admission into one of the most competitive schools and courses in Nigeria, a feat my dad calls a miracle till date, due to some circumstances that happened after he prayed for it to happen. It was legal admission though, I beat the cutoff mark set.

Just before I resumed, I had become more and more interested in the baptism of the Holy Spirit, with the evidence of speaking in tongues. I couldn't speak in tongues up to this point.

A few days after I resumed in my hostel, a member of a church I had never heard of was on evangelism. I always took my time to listen to and even entertain people like this, because I know the amount of bravery it takes and what they face from mockers, abusers and those who just want to argue, in order to encourage them and learn even more points to use when I was going on mine.

He told me he could pray for me and I will start to speak in tongues. I was shocked and flatly refused. What I had been taught was Salvation > Water Baptism > Sanctification > Infilling / indwelling of the Holy Ghost.

He then quoted the case of Cornelius' household (Acts 10: 44 - 46) and those who eventually became the elders of the Ephesian church when they first met Paul ( Acts 19: 1 - 7)

He quoted these as instances of instant Holy Ghost baptism, without the Sanctification part and I was very baffled. I simply didn't know how to respond...
Okay
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by gaby(m): 5:08am On Apr 09, 2022
TheRealOwner:
Yes, you read the title correctly. PS. I am here only to read mature inputs and comments from people who have passed through similar situations or have experience in what I want to talk about. If you have nothing tangible to contribute, turn back now and enjoy your life.

My Backstory
I was born and raised in a church that is basically a copy cat of Deeper Life in terms of doctrine, worship, lifestyle and conduct. No earrings, tattoos, jeans, etc. If you are familiar with deeper life, you know what I'm talking about.

There's one major difference though, there's a strong emphasis on the activities of witches, wizards, household enemies and praying against them ( fall down and die prayers). This part will become very important later.

Childhood & formative years
I don't want to reveal too many details here, but let's just say my family is a prestigious one in the church, with both parents in the workforce and Dad being an especially loyal, vocal and committed pastor. He can do and undo for the ministry in terms of giving, sacrificing his time, coordinating activities and so on. Naturally, there was this obvious pressure to follow his footsteps and I can say I was already toeing that path, from when I was intelligent enough to read, to my teenage years.

I was already very proficient in biblical stories and could the KJV word for word, chapter and verse without blinking from a around age 7 - 8, something that got me a lot of love and respect in the church. I remember a particular incident in my primary school where my class teacher wanted to show me off. He entered me into a Bible quiz meant for people 2 classes above mine without prior notice and let's just say I didn't disappoint him or my class. First place wink

I never shyed away from youth programs, evangelisms, sharing handbills of our upcoming crusades and programs, staying after service to clean the church, etc. I also tried my very best to live a holy life, following peace with all men and holiness, and presenting my body as a living sacrifice. I never hungout with fellow boys in my class, as I saw them as sinners and the things they were doing as things that will compromise my salvation.

As I grew older and older, I began to realise that there were so many different types of churches and doctrines they believed and practiced, which were different from ours.

Our G.O and my dad used to criticize so many of these churches, showing us from the Bible why some of their beliefs and practices were wrong and how they were hellbound. I believed all of it hook, line and sinker.

Anytime Education took me out of the home, I always attended DLCF, (deeper life campus fellowship) as I felt at ease with their doctrines and manner of service, almost 100% same thing I have known and experienced from childhood. This was directly recommended to us by the G.O so I just followed suit.

The turning points
I gained admission into one of the most competitive schools and courses in Nigeria, a feat my dad calls a miracle till date, due to some circumstances that happened after he prayed for it to happen. It was legal admission though, I beat the cutoff mark set.

Just before I resumed, I had become more and more interested in the baptism of the Holy Spirit, with the evidence of speaking in tongues. I couldn't speak in tongues up to this point.

A few days after I resumed in my hostel, a member of a church I had never heard of was on evangelism. I always took my time to listen to and even entertain people like this, because I know the amount of bravery it takes and what they face from mockers, abusers and those who just want to argue, in order to encourage them and learn even more points to use when I was going on mine.

He told me he could pray for me and I will start to speak in tongues. I was shocked and flatly refused. What I had been taught was Salvation > Water Baptism > Sanctification > Infilling / indwelling of the Holy Ghost.

He then quoted the case of Cornelius' household (Acts 10: 44 - 46) and those who eventually became the elders of the Ephesian church when they first met Paul ( Acts 19: 1 - 7)

He quoted these as instances of instant Holy Ghost baptism, without the Sanctification part and I was very baffled. I simply didn't know how to respond...

Wow..

Are you sure you ain't one of my siblings?

This sounds very much like my family and childhood.

I'm sure you are talking about Apostolic Faith because your narrative mirrors everything about my family and growing up days.
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by oloriooko(m): 6:11am On Apr 09, 2022
kwantinu bro

TheRealOwner:
Yes, you read the title correctly. PS. I am here only to read mature inputs and comments from people who have passed through similar situations or have experience in what I want to talk about. If you have nothing tangible to contribute, turn back now and enjoy your life.

My Backstory
I was born and raised in a church that is basically a copy cat of Deeper Life in terms of doctrine, worship, lifestyle and conduct. No earrings, tattoos, jeans, etc. If you are familiar with deeper life, you know what I'm talking about.

There's one major difference though, there's a strong emphasis on the activities of witches, wizards, household enemies and praying against them ( fall down and die prayers). This part will become very important later.

Childhood & formative years
I don't want to reveal too many details here, but let's just say my family is a prestigious one in the church, with both parents in the workforce and Dad being an especially loyal, vocal and committed pastor. He can do and undo for the ministry in terms of giving, sacrificing his time, coordinating activities and so on. Naturally, there was this obvious pressure to follow his footsteps and I can say I was already toeing that path, from when I was intelligent enough to read, to my teenage years.

I was already very proficient in biblical stories and could the KJV word for word, chapter and verse without blinking from a around age 7 - 8, something that got me a lot of love and respect in the church. I remember a particular incident in my primary school where my class teacher wanted to show me off. He entered me into a Bible quiz meant for people 2 classes above mine without prior notice and let's just say I didn't disappoint him or my class. First place wink

I never shyed away from youth programs, evangelisms, sharing handbills of our upcoming crusades and programs, staying after service to clean the church, etc. I also tried my very best to live a holy life, following peace with all men and holiness, and presenting my body as a living sacrifice. I never hungout with fellow boys in my class, as I saw them as sinners and the things they were doing as things that will compromise my salvation.

As I grew older and older, I began to realise that there were so many different types of churches and doctrines they believed and practiced, which were different from ours.

Our G.O and my dad used to criticize so many of these churches, showing us from the Bible why some of their beliefs and practices were wrong and how they were hellbound. I believed all of it hook, line and sinker.

Anytime Education took me out of the home, I always attended DLCF, (deeper life campus fellowship) as I felt at ease with their doctrines and manner of service, almost 100% same thing I have known and experienced from childhood. This was directly recommended to us by the G.O so I just followed suit.

The turning points
I gained admission into one of the most competitive schools and courses in Nigeria, a feat my dad calls a miracle till date, due to some circumstances that happened after he prayed for it to happen. It was legal admission though, I beat the cutoff mark set.

Just before I resumed, I had become more and more interested in the baptism of the Holy Spirit, with the evidence of speaking in tongues. I couldn't speak in tongues up to this point.

A few days after I resumed in my hostel, a member of a church I had never heard of was on evangelism. I always took my time to listen to and even entertain people like this, because I know the amount of bravery it takes and what they face from mockers, abusers and those who just want to argue, in order to encourage them and learn even more points to use when I was going on mine.

He told me he could pray for me and I will start to speak in tongues. I was shocked and flatly refused. What I had been taught was Salvation > Water Baptism > Sanctification > Infilling / indwelling of the Holy Ghost.

He then quoted the case of Cornelius' household (Acts 10: 44 - 46) and those who eventually became the elders of the Ephesian church when they first met Paul ( Acts 19: 1 - 7)

He quoted these as instances of instant Holy Ghost baptism, without the Sanctification part and I was very baffled. I simply didn't know how to respond...
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by oteneaaron(m): 6:52am On Apr 09, 2022
This is going to be interesting.

Driver abeg drop me here.

Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by Nobody: 7:51am On Apr 09, 2022
TheRealOwner:


He quoted these as instances of instant Holy Ghost baptism, without the Sanctification part and I was very baffled. I simply didn't know how to respond...

Please continue........

What happened next?
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by wolesmile(m): 12:39pm On Apr 09, 2022
Perhaps you've forgotten. You created a thread in 2019 where mentioned your school. You were welcoming Jambites to school then, remember?



But continue your story....
We're waiting...
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by OlawaleBammie: 4:16pm On Apr 09, 2022
Op do quick sleep dey catch me
TheRealOwner:
LIFE AS A FRESHER
Somehow, by a twist of fate ( lol it's not fate, I discovered they usually targeted freshers in uni like I was), the first guy came around more and more.

He would invite me for their Tuesday campus fellowship services and I was always eager to go. Sometimes he took me there (paid the T-fare), sometimes I trekked, sometimes we trekked together.

Now, I really don't want to mention the name of this ministry coz of personal reasons but I found their services so enthralling. Service started with 5 - 7 mins of praying in tongues, then followed by songs I had never heard before, singing about Jesus, the Church, the authority we have and so on. Service usually ended with the ministration of the spirit (though not always). The pastor would call out cases of sickness and other things and pray for them, with people falling down and sometimes full blown cases of people 'manifesting' (you'll know what I am talking about if you have ever been in a Yoruba church that conducts deliverance sessions)

This church was not anything like where I was coming from, with ladies rocking make-up, trousers, short gowns and skirts, hair attachments and wigs, etc. But I ignored all that because of my encounter and the fact that their sermons were so spiritually deep and focused on so much more than sin, holiness and sanctification, and God's blessings and commandments as I was used to, and always backed up with new testament verses and very detailed explanations. I was always taking notes and learning at such a great pace. I was always eager to learn and grow my knowledge.

Meanwhile, all this time, I was going to other churches too to learn as much as I could and have as much experience. Especially DLCF and a newly formed fellowship consisting of members of my church from home. Our highest attendance here was 14 members on the day of my freshers welcome and a regular Sunday service will see us at around 7 - 10 members and Thursdays, we'll be 4 - 6 people, so everybody knew everybody and I was so regular in all services.

I would go to DLCF on Mondays, the new interesting one on Tuesdays, the fellowship of my church from home on Thursdays and Sundays. I attended DLCF's special Congress programs then too and a few other special programs by other churches I can't remember now. All my close friends in the department were DLCF members as we were so alike in mindset, behaviour and other things.

As a result of all my churchiness, I actually didn't didn't study my academic books so much and I almost failed 3 core courses in my first semester then ( 2 Physics, 1 chem), although I passed all others well via crash reading. I remember those 3 so well because the school set it up that we'll do all 3 within 2 days and the Chemistry was 4 units. I actually fell really sick and got bloated after the day we finished our exams. I remember praying to God to please help me pass the Chemistry coz it's a 4unit course and was the toughest one in the whole of year 1. I got 10/30 in the test and fell into a gutter while coming back from viewing the results coz I was lost in thought. My Jean trousers actually tore because of the way I fell and a deeper life friend of mine gave me his labcoat to cover my embarrassment. I had started wearing Jeans at this point because of I now knew it wasn't bad.

I read so much for the exams but it was mostly crash and fearful reading. I got exactly 50 in that Chemistry, 52 and 58 in the other Physics courses, while people I was in the same hostel as were sweeping 80s and 90s

When first semester results came out, I realized I was bottom 20 in a class of 108. (I almost typed something that would have given away the school cheesy)

During the first semester break, my mom noticed I was speaking in tongues now and she was very happy for me, she didn't ask me when and how.
I didn't allow my dad rest that time, I was always asking him doctrinal questions, why we do this and don't do this in our church, what our core doctrines were and the history of our church. My dad was surprised I had taken to questioning and had so much interest at examining the core beliefs I was brought up with. This part will become very important later as he will disown a year from this break and have absolutely nothing to do with me. I will explain when due


Second semester, I evaluated myself better and was a much better academic student and I was rewarded with a very dramatic rise in my CGPA. Now I was part of the top 70, which still isn't great but a good improvement from bottom 20. I had As all through second semester, except for one Physics were I had 68 and A starts from 70. The most painful score ever. I also had 60s in the 2 chemistry courses of 2nd semester (why always chemistry lol)

Something important happened in second semester. I stopped attending DLCF and focused on just the one from home and the one which will eventually became my church and led to me being disowned by Dad and the main church at home and branded a disgrace and backslider. I will explain when due

Also, the brother who first explained things to me had to go for his I.T, he then 'handed me over' to someone else who was in the same department with me but a year my senior. This guy was even more zealous than the first one. We had so many conversations on doctrine, salvation by faith, the signs of them that believe ( Mark 16: 15 - 18), the great commission, hellfire, eternal salvation, events and stories of the Law and Prophets, the book of Acts, Paul's epistles, etc

The initial cracks
I didn't know it then, but what I would later have issues with started to manifest right from when the new guy took over and would be explaining theology and doctrine to me... To be continued


The day is still young and I will continue the rest later at night. I'll try my best to complete everything today, as I have a lot to do and I will do my best to complete it before Sunday when many people will come to religious section
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by LilMissFavvy(f): 4:38pm On Apr 09, 2022
cool
Re: Spiritually Confused!! A Cry For Help by Truvelisback(m): 10:51pm On Apr 09, 2022
TheRealOwner:
Yes, you read the title correctly. PS. I am here only to read mature inputs and comments from people who have passed through similar situations or have experience in what I want to talk about. If you have nothing tangible to contribute, turn back now and enjoy your life.

My Backstory
I was born and raised in a church that is basically a copy cat of Deeper Life in terms of doctrine, worship, lifestyle and conduct. No earrings, tattoos, jeans, etc. If you are familiar with deeper life, you know what I'm talking about.

There's one major difference though, there's a strong emphasis on the activities of witches, wizards, household enemies and praying against them ( fall down and die prayers). This part will become very important later.

Childhood & formative years
I don't want to reveal too many details here, but let's just say my family is a prestigious one in the church, with both parents in the workforce and Dad being an especially loyal, vocal and committed pastor. He can do and undo for the ministry in terms of giving, sacrificing his time, coordinating activities and so on. Naturally, there was this obvious pressure to follow his footsteps and I can say I was already toeing that path, from when I was intelligent enough to read, to my teenage years.

I was already very proficient in biblical stories and could the KJV word for word, chapter and verse without blinking from a around age 7 - 8, something that got me a lot of love and respect in the church. I remember a particular incident in my primary school where my class teacher wanted to show me off. He entered me into a Bible quiz meant for people 2 classes above mine without prior notice and let's just say I didn't disappoint him or my class. First place wink

I never shyed away from youth programs, evangelisms, sharing handbills of our upcoming crusades and programs, staying after service to clean the church, etc. I also tried my very best to live a holy life, following peace with all men and holiness, and presenting my body as a living sacrifice. I never hungout with fellow boys in my class, as I saw them as sinners and the things they were doing as things that will compromise my salvation.

As I grew older and older, I began to realise that there were so many different types of churches and doctrines they believed and practiced, which were different from ours.

Our G.O and my dad used to criticize so many of these churches, showing us from the Bible why some of their beliefs and practices were wrong and how they were hellbound. I believed all of it hook, line and sinker.

Anytime Education took me out of the home, I always attended DLCF, (deeper life campus fellowship) as I felt at ease with their doctrines and manner of service, almost 100% same thing I have known and experienced from childhood. This was directly recommended to us by the G.O so I just followed suit.

The turning points
I gained admission into one of the most competitive schools and courses in Nigeria, a feat my dad calls a miracle till date, due to some circumstances that happened after he prayed for it to happen. It was legal admission though, I beat the cutoff mark set.

Just before I resumed, I had become more and more interested in the baptism of the Holy Spirit, with the evidence of speaking in tongues. I couldn't speak in tongues up to this point.

A few days after I resumed in my hostel, a member of a church I had never heard of was on evangelism. I always took my time to listen to and even entertain people like this, because I know the amount of bravery it takes and what they face from mockers, abusers and those who just want to argue, in order to encourage them and learn even more points to use when I was going on mine.

He told me he could pray for me and I will start to speak in tongues. I was shocked and flatly refused. What I had been taught was Salvation > Water Baptism > Sanctification > Infilling / indwelling of the Holy Ghost.

He then quoted the case of Cornelius' household (Acts 10: 44 - 46) and those who eventually became the elders of the Ephesian church when they first met Paul ( Acts 19: 1 - 7)

He quoted these as instances of instant Holy Ghost baptism, without the Sanctification part and I was very baffled. I simply didn't know how to respond...

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That really really sparked something in me, as I had never seen that perspective before. A few days after this, a member of another popular church that I would have classified as 'worldly church' came on evangelism and asked to pray for Holy Spirit baptism. Since I knew more this time, I decided to give it a try and he prayed for me and asked me to speak to tongues. Nothing happened. I was disappointed. There was nothing they could tell me again.

I woke up in the night about 3 days later and I decided to try again. I spoke in tongues for the first time and I was elated. Is this what I had been told could take years and years of crying out to God with brokenness of heart and spiritual hunger? Was it really that easy?

I had elevated spiritually and I was so happy.


If it was that easy as u have said, why did u feel disappointed when u gave it a try? Bro, it is nothing to boast abt.The flesh profiteth nothing, it is The Spirit that giveth life. The ability to speak in other tongues didn't come from u, rather it came from God(The HolySpirit).

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