Nothing makes me feel worth living anymore..
Am 25 years, (by December 30). I'm a student, (second university) at uniport. I dropped out from uniuyo because of hardship and because of family problems (I have a step mom, lost mine in 2000, never got to know her).

I worked for few months (2018) and then got admission in uniport.. I am an introvert and I hated leaving home, but I wanted to go to school and I knew if stayed at home it'll be impossible.. I'm a course rep in my department (education and physics). And although it is extremely hard to get by in porthacourt I was ready to suffer as far as I got an education.. I'm currently in year 2 (had admission 2019). Thus strike is depressing and now that am back home, am doing my best to find a job but nothing is coming out .
I am a self taught UAV Aviator.. I was working on my first project when strike came..

I was hoping that when I finished it, it'd earn me a scholarship with my connections in school.. but strike came and my rent is wasting plus am owing school fees.. the thing is that daddy was coarced by my family to live up to his duties (I have faced a lot of emotional and physical abuse from childhood) but I have always sworn that I wouldn't suffer as a kid and suffer in future so I do my best personally..


But the thing is my dad is getting old and I have very small siblings and money isn't coming into the family like it used to, plus the two strikes and the wasted rents is stressing my dad...he's getting sick.

I can't even afford simple things for myself.. I am growing older and with all these talents I have, and no job to fuel it, no capital to do something.. Plus if school starts today wether I like it or not I can't go back because.. I don't have money for rent, school fees or to take myself there.... The jobs I find pay 15000 and my transport to work is about 12 every month...
It's hard not to worry about tomorrow when today is crumbling right in front of me.. I am loosing it.. I don't want to drop out, but it's likely I'll have to, and without a plan B I'm naked.. there's nothing at home and nothing to do ...
I wish I could at least have something doing or at least complete my project, I know fully well that as soon as that thing flies I'll get more than enough publicity for my status to change . Dad sees me like a burden, and if not that he cannot blame me for the present situation he would not tolerate me.. I'm getting too old to be staying with my parents, but I don't even have a way of feeding myself once a day and I have to take the shame if being treated like a child because at least it keeps me alive...am ashamed ..... The more i grow older the more it becomes impossible for me to get out poverty.. it's really painful and I want to end it... Maybe it wasn't meant to be .. I'm just tired of living in pains when I have what it takes to prosper and build others ... I don't know who you talk to, I don't have any one to talk to... I just want to say it in to people who even if they Judge me cannot see me.. .. I'm dieing inside . I have always been alone from childhood, always the secluded and other child and I have always been my own pillar but right now that piller is crumbling on me ..and I can't take it anymore.. maybe If I leave my Dad will be able to take care of this small ones... I am tired.. 25k would change my life for ever


..I'm not begging.. just saying that with way things are going I wouldn't mind doing anything if I could... Tried being a security guard . Turns out the company wasn't planning on paying from the beginning.. I had hoped if I received the 20k pay I'd use it get hybrid cocumber seeds, use some to prepare soil and get other things.. but after suffering one month trekking to work.. they refused to pay, saying the company hasn't been paid.. and this hurts like hell..

I hoped if I worked few more months I'd have enough money to suspend Studies officially.. but I just don't know what else to do now...
My world has come to a close.. it's clear my dad can't afford both a new rent, school fees and money for my upkeep..and even though I try to augment with small things every month money becomes useless and harder to get..


Now adays I am ashamed to say I sell my dad's coconuts to fruit sellers without his knowledge... I join in taking discarded soft drink cans to exchange for money....

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I need help.. I'm ready to work anywhere... I can write, I can make UAVs I can, I can lead, I can brand T shirt's.. , it doesnt matter if I know you or not ...I'll work, it's a risk am willing to take provided is fir the Better... I just want to start something before it's too late.. these days I eat when I see food... I promise to make you proud ... Please help me I am starving in my own father's house and it's not his fault anymore... Please... I'd beg for money and I'd really appreciate... but how about when the money finishes.. I want something to out me on my feet at least... I'm intelligent and I'm sure once I can stand on my feet I'd amaze the world...
Please.. I accept I am begging now... I promise to make you proud.. Biko.. I'm begging although I'm ashamed... I'm tired if pretending hence why am using my main account.... You can go through my threads..
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Am really desperate..I have no one to turn to.. please... I am not threatening.. but I'm at that point we're I am not scared of killing myself.. and if there's anything that scares me, it's the stress I'll put the people I'll leave behind... Makes me feel selfish... But I am at the end of it and I'm just waiting for a time when I don't have tried all I can and still fail.. that's why I am begging..



That's my picture .. I am not a fraudster, although I swear I have thought about it.. .. I'm just begging for help.


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14.56.40.33.08 access bank ..

You wan die
Or you need 25k

My project..it's all that makes me feel I'm not useless.. but even it cannot keep my thinking straight anymore..

Eeyah kpele

The story no clear

Real issues we face not osinbanjo dis peter obi dat. Bro stay strong, the silver lines wil come thru

Tough times don't last, only tough people do.

Laggafin:
Real issues we face not osinbanjo dis peter obi dat. Bro stay strong, the silver lines wil come thru

damn bro... I am depressed

Corporate2020:
Tough times don't last, only tough people do.

it's been tough from the beginning... Mom was a caterer with shell.. as soon as she died things went sour.. suffered growing up and counted the end of my suffering to when I'd graduate, at least I'd have something... But it's almost useless now..
My dad can afford to do anything to me because he knows I have no choice..and plus he is frustrated on his own...

Una remember that guy wet him say him wife die say him no go do marriage??


Hmmm Nigga stop GAMBLE and live a happy and better life.


Your location and address before your account.

The young man needs help.
May the Lord richly bless anyone who would extend his/her hand to assist him

Having read your write up, I feel for you but I want you to know that, a man will definitely go through hard times especially if his parents can't afford to sponsor their education or whatever they want

The most important thing is that you are alive and healthy, God will see your family through

In as much as you don't insult your parents or cause trouble at home, no one will laugh at you

Just be calm and calculative, your time to shine is coming

Don't worry about tomorrow because God is planning greater things for you

Send me your account details let me send weekend purse to you

.

frozen70:
Having read your write up, I feel for you but I want you to know that, a man will definitely go through hard times especially if his parents can't afford to sponsor their education or whatever they want

The most important thing is that you are alive and healthy, God will see your family through

In as much as you don't insult your parents or cause trouble at home, no one will laugh at you

Just be calm and calculative, your time to shine is coming

Don't worry about tomorrow because God is planning greater things for you

Send me your account details let me send weekend purse to you

Humanity needs people like you... givers never lack..


You will never be stranded when you need help.

Long life shall be your portion in Jesus Name.



I rili felt for the guy but also in the same situation... can't help.

frozen70:
Having read your write up, I feel for you but I want you to know that, a man will definitely go through hard times especially if his parents can't afford to sponsor their education or whatever they want

The most important thing is that you are alive and healthy, God will see your family through

In as much as you don't insult your parents or cause trouble at home, no one will laugh at you

Just be calm and calculative, your time to shine is coming

Don't worry about tomorrow because God is planning greater things for you

Send me your account details let me send weekend purse to you

You always seem to extend a helping hand to people here. Been observing you on numerous occasions. I would say that's commendable and thanks a lot for all you do. God bless you abundantly

Charlex23:

You always seem to extend a helping hand to people here. Been observing you on numerous occasions. I would say that's commendable and thanks a lot for all you do. God bless you abundantly

Thanks my dear and God bless you for richly

Toktee:
Humanity needs people like you... givers never lack..


You will never be stranded when you need help.

Long life shall be your portion in Jesus Name.



I rili felt for the guy but also in the same situation... can't help.

Thanks very much my dear, God will position greatly so that you won't be in a situation to lack anything

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frozen70:


Thanks very much my dear, God will position greatly so that you won't be in a situation to lack anything

AMEN.

Abasman007:
thank you very very very much... God bless you

Amen and you too

frozen70:
Having read your write up, I feel for you but I want you to know that, a man will definitely go through hard times especially if his parents can't afford to sponsor their education or whatever they want

The most important thing is that you are alive and healthy, God will see your family through

In as much as you don't insult your parents or cause trouble at home, no one will laugh at you

Just be calm and calculative, your time to shine is coming

Don't worry about tomorrow because God is planning greater things for you

Send me your account details let me send weekend purse to you

mummy God bless you .......General mummy.

When planning kill yourself just know that most of us have been bedridden for close to two years cos of sickness but we ain't giving up cos the future is brighter and I am not ready to cutting short God's purpose for my life.

Just calm down and see them as your own part of challenge that everyone faces,yours too shall pass.
Really wish I could help with something cos as at this time last week I had no food for drugs but thank God for mummy Frozen and others that came to my aid.
God be with you brotherly,you could check my signature to give your self hope that things would get better .
I ain't giving up so you shouldn't too.......

Miraclenoble:
mummy God bless you .......General mummy.

Thanks and God bless you too