So see me yeah
Everyone looks down on me (except my mum and grandparents), even my dad doesn't even want me.
My mum was sadly put in the family way at a young age and I was the result of the union
She refused to marry him tho.
He went on and had many kids with other ladies, he doesn't even see me as useful lol. Insults everyday

Even in school, everyone looks down on me, yet I managed to become a medical student at the university... But still no change.
I don't fit into any cliques In my class, I'm always on my own. No friends or even babe to.keep myself lively and happy

If my mother isn't around, everywhere will be so lonely.
Yeh, she still hasn't married anyone yet because of me. And the guilt from that kills me.
I've been trying to sleep since 9, I rolled from then till 10:30 I couldn't even sleep.

I just took my phone and typed all of this out, so many things on my mind. I'm still a teen, I should be having fun.

The only time I don't feel sad is when I'm reading, or when I'm laughing at comedy videos on the internet.
I've been coping with reading my course material over this Strike period but I'm honestly tired.

But Bleep this complaints sha, I know tikes will change
I'm not after any pity or grants or any of those things. Just needed somewhere to dump my thoughts and insecurities
I just know everything will change one day

God bless you. Thanks for reading

Take life step by step

You'll be alright bro, just hang in there, focus on your studies graduate as a medical doctor and watch how things will get 100% better.

Talk to people, dont plunge yourself into depression.

Get into a relationship with Jesus Christ. He accepts and loves unconditionally. Nothing else can satisfy you in this selfish and wicked world.