Salam Alaikum brothers and Sisters.

I'm quite ashamed to say this but I just have to.

For years now due to how much hardship I have faced I derailed from Islam. Not that I stopped believing but i stopped practicing, I don't pray and I lost home in believing I can always run to Allah. I was just living as the day goes by.

I have so much problems that I never excel in anything I do no matter how easy it looks. I've seek for solution but they always tell me I'm being affected by a curse placed on my by people who hate my mother because despite all they did, she still gave birth to me at an old age. If they can't conquer her then they will conquer me. My parents are late now anyway.

I've lost jobs, I've lost help, people often just decide to dislike me for no particular reason after they might have promised to help me, I've lost a chance to travel abroad without me having to pay one naira, my helper just stopped responding to me just like that even after he has done my passport without me paying a dime.
I've passed an interview only for them to call me on Monday that I should not bother to resume just like that.
My relationship keeps getting worse day by day for no good reason.
I left Nigeria and traveled to an African country by road but no improvement in my life yet...
I've got rich and influential family mmbers but none wants to help.

Let me cut the long story short, I did not bother to practice anymore because it seems the more I was praying the more things get bad for me. So I felt what's the use of my God can watch me go through all theses, I've never been genuinely happy for once since I lost my mom in 2013. I'm just 26 and I have experienced all of these, its way too much for me.


I've suffered or I always get depressed almost everyday. As a matter of fact the reason why I have not committed suicide is because I am my mom's only child. If I do so it means I'm ending her bloodline. I can't pay her love back with such. She gave her all and fought till her last breath. But still yet I still have suicidal thoughts because I just want to REST! Dead people have nothing to worry about.

But somehow there's this part of me telling me to seek my creator again.

Does Allah care about me?
Can he ever be pleased with me?
Can he put an end to my struggles?
Will he answer my prayers?


I need help, I'm broken. I'm tired of fighting.

yungchop:
Salam Alaikum brothers and Sisters.

I'm quite ashamed to say this but I just have to.

For years now due to how much hardship I have faced I derailed from Islam. Not that I stopped believing but i stopped practicing, I don't pray and I lost home in believing I can always run to Allah. I was just living as the day goes by.

I have so much problems that I never excel in anything I do no matter how easy it looks. I've seek for solution but they always tell me I'm being affected by a curse placed on my by people who hate my mother because despite all they did, she still gave birth to me at an old age. If they can't conquer her then they will conquer me. My parents are late now anyway.

I've lost jobs, I've lost help, people often just decide to dislike me for no particular reason after they might have promised to help me, I've lost a chance to travel abroad without me having to pay one naira, my helper just stopped responding to me just like that even after he has done my passport without me paying a dime.
I've passed an interview only for them to call me on Monday that I should not bother to resume just like that.
My relationship keeps getting worse day by day for no good reason.
I left Nigeria and traveled to an African country by road but no improvement in my life yet...
I've got rich and influential family mmbers but none wants to help.

Let me cut the long story short, I did not bother to practice anymore because it seems the more I was praying the more things get bad for me. So I felt what's the use of my God can watch me go through all theses, I've never been genuinely happy for once since I lost my mom in 2013. I'm just 26 and I have experienced all of these, its way too much for me.


I've suffered or I always get depressed almost everyday. As a matter of fact the reason why I have not committed suicide is because I am my mom's only child. If I do so it means I'm ending her bloodline. I can't pay her love back with such. She gave her all and fought till her last breath. But still yet I still have suicidal thoughts because I just want to REST! Dead people have nothing to worry about.

But somehow there's this part of me telling me to seek my creator again.

Does Allah care about me?
Can he ever be pleased with me?
Can he put an end to my struggles?
Will he answer my prayers?


I need help, I'm broken. I'm tired of fighting.

I sympathise with you and hope that you get out of your problems.
However, the sad truth is "praying to any diety including Allah doesn't work" . Just be hard working, be hopeful and try out new approaches to solving your problems.

Since you have rightly said that you gotten your Deen back, stand by it.been a Muslim doesn't mean you aren't going to face challenges it's part of life and everyone will have he/her own share at a particular point in time, don't allow it to mar you but make you.always recite the last 2 verse of Quraish

yungchop:
Salam Alaikum brothers and Sisters.

I'm quite ashamed to say this but I just have to.

For years now due to how much hardship I have faced I derailed from Islam. Not that I stopped believing but i stopped practicing, I don't pray and I lost home in believing I can always run to Allah. I was just living as the day goes by.

I have so much problems that I never excel in anything I do no matter how easy it looks. I've seek for solution but they always tell me I'm being affected by a curse placed on my by people who hate my mother because despite all they did, she still gave birth to me at an old age. If they can't conquer her then they will conquer me. My parents are late now anyway.

I've lost jobs, I've lost help, people often just decide to dislike me for no particular reason after they might have promised to help me, I've lost a chance to travel abroad without me having to pay one naira, my helper just stopped responding to me just like that even after he has done my passport without me paying a dime.
I've passed an interview only for them to call me on Monday that I should not bother to resume just like that.
My relationship keeps getting worse day by day for no good reason.
I left Nigeria and traveled to an African country by road but no improvement in my life yet...
I've got rich and influential family mmbers but none wants to help.

Let me cut the long story short, I did not bother to practice anymore because it seems the more I was praying the more things get bad for me. So I felt what's the use of my God can watch me go through all theses, I've never been genuinely happy for once since I lost my mom in 2013. I'm just 26 and I have experienced all of these, its way too much for me.


I've suffered or I always get depressed almost everyday. As a matter of fact the reason why I have not committed suicide is because I am my mom's only child. If I do so it means I'm ending her bloodline. I can't pay her love back with such. She gave her all and fought till her last breath. But still yet I still have suicidal thoughts because I just want to REST! Dead people have nothing to worry about.

But somehow there's this part of me telling me to seek my creator again.

Does Allah care about me?
Can he ever be pleased with me?
Can he put an end to my struggles?
Will he answer my prayers?


I need help, I'm broken. I'm tired of fighting.

ALLAH KNOWS YOUR EVERY FEELING AND CARES ABOUT YOU BRO.

HE WILL ALWAYS BE PLEASED WITH YOU SO LONG AS YOU SHOW AWE, RESPECT AND REGARD FOR HIM BY DOING WHAT HE HAS COMMANDED AND FLEEING FROM HIS PROHIBITIONS.

HE CAN AND WILL PUT AN END TO YOUR STRUGGLES IF YOU RETURN TO HIM AND STAND FIRM IN THE FACE OF HIS TRIALS.
TRIALS ARE THE REASONS WE ARE HERE,
ALL NATONS WILL BE TESTED.
EVERY MAN WILL BE TESTED.
BUT FOR SURE THE TESTS WILL END SOMEDAY, LEAVING YOU BETTER OR BATTERED DEPENDING ON YOUR FAITHFULNESS.

PLEASE STOP BELIEVING THAT ANYONE IS RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR TROUBLES.
ONLY ALLAH HAS ALLOWED THEM TO HAPPEN AND ONLY HE CAN END THEM AND HE WILL.

LASTLY, YES, HE WILL ANSWER YOUR PRAYERS. HE HEARS EVERYTHING SAID BY ANYONE IN THE UNIVERSE.
YOUR JOB IS TO PRAY, KNOWING AND BELEIVING HE WILL ANSWER.

Brother,
Stay firm. Wallahi all those would come to a past.
Stick to your prayers and don't despair.
Allah said in the holy Qur'an: Verily, to every hardship there is an ease!
Don't lose your Eymern Bro.

May Allah make things easy for you.
May He simplify your hardships.
Keep pushing Bro.