Hey guys I need help, I'm still trying to find my way in life so this is just so much for me to handle alone to the point I'm up at night writing this because I'm usually self sufficient so I don't ask for help....



I can't explain this to anyone but honestly I really do. I've recently got out of a narcissistic relationship 4 months ago and it really took a toll on me mentally that I recently realized that I've been depressed for months because my life was terrible and I was so broke to the point I was sleeping on the floor and this girl kept stressing the life out of me trying to tell her to not do this and not do that even still gaslighting me and painting me as an abusive person to our mutual friends and I don't tell people my relationship issues so I never for once told anybody anything about my relationship but she told everyone we knew about whatever happened in our relationship.



The breakup wasn't even official she just started avoiding me and I just left her be because I was already tired and stressed out from the life challenges I was facing at home both me and family even after telling her I scrapped my last funds to assist my dad in paying our house rent. I don't want to make it look like she's the cause of my problems because I like taking responsibility for my life not anybody else but I can't help the fact but realize that I changed so much that for the past months I've been trying to find myself and it's like depression has become my new identity



Even my close friend treated me like I was a nuisance by avoiding me when I was at my lowest point after the breakup even after being with him through his own hard times, doing things for him, giving him my clothes and even buying things for him, I've been angry and tired for months but I kept going to make money before the end of the year and I'm doing so well now and I've made money.



I no longer sleep on the floor, I no longer use my old phone that was stressing my life [I bought a new one so I use two], I'm fatter and more healthier, I'm no longer friends with those guys anymore, I'm no longer hard on myself by using hateful words on me, I'm trying to correct the aspects I did wrong in my last relationship and trying to learn healthy communication, I'm practicing self love by working on my skin, face and photo skills since I'm more of the introvert, I'm really handsome now as I can say to the point that I get 2 matches daily on tinder (that's if I'm active on there but I barely even use the app) and I'm trying to regain and even better myself but I'm exhausted, I'm weak and I feel no resolve to do anything.



I tried having sex recently but my third leg... it didn't get up and then I realized that through those dark times it was p*rn that kept me going, anytime I felt too sad or angry I would watch hardcore p*rn and rub one off then sleep and wake up the next day and start grinding. Now I've been sober from porn and masturbation for 13 days and I don't have plans on watching p*rn anymore since that night I realized it couldn't get up.

Initially I've started feeling so well about myself but it doesn't last, only just few hours before I'm back in a state of sadness, it's like depression became my identity. I can't even watch self improvement video anymore like I used to and feel motivated because I just feel so tired, I'm tired and sometimes when I think about the past I feel rage but I throw it away and think of something else because my rage when I was dating that girl was so bad I started questioning myself that maybe I was abusive, maybe I'm actually toxic that even when I try to fix things in the process of fixing it I'll get gaslighted and I'll let it get to me and throw another rage fit again so I couldn't understand because I hardly react to things, I was very calm and positive before I met her, people loved my presence it just changed.



I'm sad, I know men aren't supposed to be sad but I am. I didn't cry, I didn't tell anybody about this but I know I need help. I'm supposed to be working to meet up the goals I have for this year but when I pick up my phone to work I just can't, I just find something to eat and sleep and when I wake up I'm still tired. Give me advice I'm slacking off I know I am

DamianDd:
Hey guys I need help, I'm still trying to find my way in life so this is just so much for me to handle alone to the point I'm up at night writing this because I'm usually self sufficient so I don't ask for help....



I can't explain this to anyone but honestly I really do. I've recently got out of a narcissistic relationship 4 months ago and it really took a toll on me mentally that I recently realized that I've been depressed for months because my life was terrible and I was so broke to the point I was sleeping on the floor and this girl kept stressing the life out of me trying to tell her to not do this and not do that even still gaslighting me and painting me as an abusive person to our mutual friends and I don't tell people my relationship issues so I never for once told anybody anything about my relationship but she told everyone we knew about whatever happened in our relationship.



The breakup wasn't even official she just started avoiding me and I just left her be because I was already tired and stressed out from the life challenges I was facing at home both me and family even after telling her I scrapped my last funds to assist my dad in paying our house rent. I don't want to make it look like she's the cause of my problems because I like taking responsibility for my life not anybody else but I can't help the fact but realize that I changed so much that for the past months I've been trying to find myself and it's like depression has become my new identity



Even my close friend treated me like I was a nuisance by avoiding me when I was at my lowest point after the breakup even after being with him through his own hard times, doing things for him, giving him my clothes and even buying things for him, I've been angry and tired for months but I kept going to make money before the end of the year and I'm doing so well now and I've made money.



I no longer sleep on the floor, I no longer use my old phone that was stressing my life [I bought a new one so I use two], I'm fatter and more healthier, I'm no longer friends with those guys anymore, I'm no longer hard on myself by using hateful words on me, I'm trying to correct the aspects I did wrong in my last relationship and trying to learn healthy communication, I'm practicing self love by working on my skin, face and photo skills since I'm more of the introvert, I'm really handsome now as I can say to the point that I get 2 matches daily on tinder (that's if I'm active on there but I barely even use the app) and I'm trying to regain and even better myself but I'm exhausted, I'm weak and I feel no resolve to do anything.



I tried having sex recently but my third leg... it didn't get up and then I realized that through those dark times it was p*rn that kept me going, anytime I felt too sad or angry I would watch hardcore p*rn and rub one off then sleep and wake up the next day and start grinding. Now I've been sober from porn and masturbation for 13 days and I don't have plans on watching p*rn anymore since that night I realized it couldn't get up.

Initially I've started feeling so well about myself but it doesn't last, only just few hours before I'm back in a state of sadness, it's like depression became my identity. I can't even watch self improvement video anymore like I used to and feel motivated because I just feel so tired, I'm tired and sometimes when I think about the past I feel rage but I throw it away and think of something else because my rage when I was dating that girl was so bad I started questioning myself that maybe I was abusive, maybe I'm actually toxic that even when I try to fix things in the process of fixing it I'll get gaslighted and I'll let it get to me and throw another rage fit again so I couldn't understand because I hardly react to things, I was very calm and positive before I met her, people loved my presence it just changed.



I'm sad, I know men aren't supposed to be sad but I am. I didn't cry, I didn't tell anybody about this but I know I need help. I'm supposed to be working to meet up the goals I have for this year but when I pick up my phone to work I just can't, I just find something to eat and sleep and when I wake up I'm still tired. Give me advice I'm slacking off I know I am

An 18yr old boy should be focused on how to properly position his future at this early stage, not engage in these rubbish acts you posted above.

You still dey play with Nigeria, your eyes go clear later when you reach 25-30.

You're still a kid, focus on the good side of life, there's a bright future ahead of you, even as a man, you need to set some goals and some principles to make you. Women plenty.

You mean 28? If you are 18 you are not serious at all! You've been in a sexual relationship with a girl for months... meaning you were in this relationship around 17+? Please focus more on the things that'll make you a man in the nearest future- learn a craft, go back to school or learn a trade and get the maturity needed to navigate relationship tides

Free2Fly:


An 18yr old boy should be focused on how to properly position his future at this early stage, not engage in these rubbish acts you posted above.

You still dey play with Nigeria, your eyes go clear later when you reach 25-30.

This kind of rubbish talk is why I don't tell people my problems, I'm asking for a solution for my mental health and bad choices you're telling me rubbish like I don't know that I need to be working. Didn't you use your judgemental eyes to read where I said I know I'm slacking off? Some of you mature people are just stupid honestly

There is void in a man that can't be satisfied totally. Only "JESUS" can fill it.

DamianDd:
Hey guys I need help, I'm still trying to find my way in life so this is just so much for me to handle alone to the point I'm up at night writing this because I'm usually self sufficient so I don't ask for help....



I can't explain this to anyone but honestly I really do. I've recently got out of a narcissistic relationship 4 months ago and it really took a toll on me mentally that I recently realized that I've been depressed for months because my life was terrible and I was so broke to the point I was sleeping on the floor and this girl kept stressing the life out of me trying to tell her to not do this and not do that even still gaslighting me and painting me as an abusive person to our mutual friends and I don't tell people my relationship issues so I never for once told anybody anything about my relationship but she told everyone we knew about whatever happened in our relationship.



The breakup wasn't even official she just started avoiding me and I just left her be because I was already tired and stressed out from the life challenges I was facing at home both me and family even after telling her I scrapped my last funds to assist my dad in paying our house rent. I don't want to make it look like she's the cause of my problems because I like taking responsibility for my life not anybody else but I can't help the fact but realize that I changed so much that for the past months I've been trying to find myself and it's like depression has become my new identity



Even my close friend treated me like I was a nuisance by avoiding me when I was at my lowest point after the breakup even after being with him through his own hard times, doing things for him, giving him my clothes and even buying things for him, I've been angry and tired for months but I kept going to make money before the end of the year and I'm doing so well now and I've made money.



I no longer sleep on the floor, I no longer use my old phone that was stressing my life [I bought a new one so I use two], I'm fatter and more healthier, I'm no longer friends with those guys anymore, I'm no longer hard on myself by using hateful words on me, I'm trying to correct the aspects I did wrong in my last relationship and trying to learn healthy communication, I'm practicing self love by working on my skin, face and photo skills since I'm more of the introvert, I'm really handsome now as I can say to the point that I get 2 matches daily on tinder (that's if I'm active on there but I barely even use the app) and I'm trying to regain and even better myself but I'm exhausted, I'm weak and I feel no resolve to do anything.



I tried having sex recently but my third leg... it didn't get up and then I realized that through those dark times it was p*rn that kept me going, anytime I felt too sad or angry I would watch hardcore p*rn and rub one off then sleep and wake up the next day and start grinding. Now I've been sober from porn and masturbation for 13 days and I don't have plans on watching p*rn anymore since that night I realized it couldn't get up.

Initially I've started feeling so well about myself but it doesn't last, only just few hours before I'm back in a state of sadness, it's like depression became my identity. I can't even watch self improvement video anymore like I used to and feel motivated because I just feel so tired, I'm tired and sometimes when I think about the past I feel rage but I throw it away and think of something else because my rage when I was dating that girl was so bad I started questioning myself that maybe I was abusive, maybe I'm actually toxic that even when I try to fix things in the process of fixing it I'll get gaslighted and I'll let it get to me and throw another rage fit again so I couldn't understand because I hardly react to things, I was very calm and positive before I met her, people loved my presence it just changed.



I'm sad, I know men aren't supposed to be sad but I am. I didn't cry, I didn't tell anybody about this but I know I need help. I'm supposed to be working to meet up the goals I have for this year but when I pick up my phone to work I just can't, I just find something to eat and sleep and when I wake up I'm still tired. Give me advice I'm slacking off I know I am

At 18 girlfriend should not be a priority for you. Your education should be your main focus. Have female friends if you wish but girlfriend should be on the back-burner.

DamianDd:


This kind of rubbish talk is why I don't tell people my problems, I'm asking for a solution for my mental health and bad choices you're telling me rubbish like I don't know that I need to be working. Didn't you use your judgemental eyes to read where I said I know I'm slacking off? Some of you mature people are just stupid honestly

An 18yr old boy with a combination of rudeness and lack of direction.

I was far better at that age in 2000

I'll see how far you'll go in life with this disgusting attitude.

You no well.18 years old and you are here stressing yourself about women and sex issues .face your studies,learn a skill.leave relationship alone.stop complaining about stage wey you never reach.tufiakwa

DamianDd:


This kind of rubbish talk is why I don't tell people my problems, I'm asking for a solution for my mental health and bad choices you're telling me rubbish like I don't know that I need to be working. Didn't you use your judgemental eyes to read where I said I know I'm slacking off? Some of you mature people are just stupid honestly

you still get mouth to talk. 18 years old boy doing all these rubbish? I pity you

Free2Fly:


An 18yr old boy with a combination of rudeness and lack of direction.

I was far better at that age in 2000

I'll see how far you'll go in life with this disgusting attitude.

Dey play

U are just 18 and still have a long way to go in life and besides u are a man u really have a whole lot to enjoy when it comes to ladies sex and relationship.

So don't drag the clock closer yet develop urself learn a skil be educated and work towards having a better future ..

18years old without focus is a dangerous precedent in a time like this.


I pity ur parents.