I feel like a pawn in the hands of some higher evil powers with a network an international network who have been controlling my life and I seem to just be getting aware of it.
The network feels so tight and inescapable and my question is ? Where is God? Is there really a God out there? Or like my sister says is it a lie of the white man to help us forsake our traditional worship...

If there is a God out there why is evil triumphing and why is the enemy thumping their chest to say they rule the world?
I have prayed and fasted my skin has lost its luster and my flesh fails of fatness,where is God?

Is this life worth all the battles? Is it worth living?
I think about my son and I believe he'd survive without me ,my fear is will he have to grow to fight the same battles I am fighting?
My Father fought and lost,that's possibly the reason why I have to fight too.....
I don't seem to be winning either
If I go will my son survive it?
How much longer do I have to fight? Would I win? Would I succeed?
My father kept asking why all these battles ? I ask the same question.....why all these battles,what am I fighting for?
Why soo much hate? What have I done ? What have my ancestors done ? What do I do now?
Is life worth living? Is it worth fighting for? Where is God? Why do I feel like a pawn in the hands of higher evil powers that won't let me go?
I thought Christianity was a ticket to grace in the past one year I have prayed soo hard ,hardly a midnight passes without me praying and yet I fell into the hands of an evil representative of God a deceptive pastor who encouraged me to cut my hair for whatever reason,I realise now I was being remote controlled,even the menstrual pad I changed in Church he stole out of my bag under the pretext of offering to drop me off at my destination.

I had so much zest for God but right now am losing all of my faith.
Are the stories in the bible mere fiction? A figment of a creative writer's imagination? Lord God Almighty if you are out there please do not delay one minute,my soul is in despair....and I need a speedy intervention.

I know God is merciful but why does HE allow so many evil people on the pulpit I know its an end time thing but its misleading people who are truly yearning for God

I know God is merciful but why does HE allow so many evil people on the pulpit I know its an end time thing but its misleading people who are truly yearning for God.
Please say a little prayer for me if you get the chance...
I am feeling very suicidal right now and wondering if its all worth it....

He is either dead or doesn't exist.

FOLYKAZE: He is either dead or doesn't exist.

do u get paid 4 dis?