hi guys.

its being a longtime i come on here since the last time i wrote about my dreams in my previous thread (https://www.nairaland.com/5884893/seeing-dead-aunty-dreams-repeatedly),
well that kind of toned down, OR I CAN CONFIDENTLY SAY STOPPED but something else sprung up now.

this time its sex in the dreams either with my cousins (males_ i’ll come back to this and why the sex choice doesn’t surprise me) or sex with a familiar person but my cousins must be in the dream maybe as passersby (but they must just be in the dreams, their faces must be registered in one way or another).

this is so almost an everyday occurrence or sometimes once in a week thing. rarely do i wake up and find myself in a pool of my semen but if i recall properly in one of these dreams this has happened.

i will cut long story short, and try to connect my childhood to this. growing up in the early 90s if you read my previous thread, i grew up in my uncles house, they had 4 boys , the eldest was about 16 to 18 and i was about 12 or a little less. i wouldn’t say i enjoyed the freedom of the house, no i didn’t and i lived in fear of most especially my aunty ( now late, the one in the dreams from my previous thread).

so growing up as “all boys”, curiosity led us astray a bit but some stains are never leaving, no matter how hard you scrub.
let me be blunt, because it was a strict home with lack of sex education, awareness or public freedom. we found ourselves experimenting our first sex experience ON OURSELVES ( it was my first, i can vow for myself) but it was always comical and brief but one experience wasn’t, the experience was always very experienced, it was the experience i had with my older cousin. he was very pro i’d say and more cautious of the environment settings when he struck at me. i can’t remember if he penetrated me because we never went that far but he personally wanted to go that far.

THIS IS NOT A PORN MOVIE ( sorry for all that detailing, i just wanted to create an image of what that aspect of my childhood looked like), this is why i really do not join in the game of throat strangling gay people. some of them had a wrong first experience and that stain never went away but again its 50% about choices (is that who you want to be come or you going to fight it).
i say this because fast forward to my teen years, people said i talked and walked like a woman, i didn’t believe this because i didn’t see myself this way. so i fought it and believe me temptations came, ONE i gave in but now all i do is fight, fight, fight everyday because i won’t lie its still hiding somewhere there but its too scared of me to come out, because am so so in control. as we speak a few months ago i’m a proud father and i’m gonna marry my child’s mom when all of this is sorted.
it was a great battle of sexual anxiety before i could sex my first woman because my signals won’t just pick but if you follow my story, u’d know a fighter is writing, so i fought and conquered that too. these days my signals are so erect, i have to switch off most times. you know what i mean by signals. Ok we clear on that i believe.


so back to the dreams, it’s a new episodes., now its sex in the dream with either of my cousins or they just have to be in same dream somehow.



how has my life being in the past 2 years, well i’ll say at a standstill. just enjoying everything i have achieved in my glory days ( which def aren’t over) but things are very slow now unusually. last year was the worst, it was a serious of bad to bad-luck. i have a different new energy now and i believe i can channel and link back to my glory days. just worried about these stupid dreams, so bad i had to block my cousins from seing my WhatsApp updates.


oh before i go….so onetime my uncle ( my late aunts husband who is heavily down with stroke and in a vegetable state, no offence) one time said and i quote,’’we were ignorant…we made a big mistake or we didn’t know what we were doing’’...by 'we', he was referring to him and his wife, apparently they had swayed away from their heavily christian devotion ( PASTOR AND DEACONESS RESPECTIVELY) and tested the waters of the fetish world, for what reason we will never know now because the kids( my cousin) went with their father, far away from home.

i don't know what worked from last time i posted the older/ other topic but am counting on it to work again and so i have shared my story again. i have still never being ti a shrine or a fetish home for personal reasons or any reason. maybe nairalanders prayed for me. so this is why i have shared again.

charlesELIKIBA:
hi guys.

its being a longtime i come on here since the last time i wrote about my dreams in my previous thread (https://www.nairaland.com/5884893/seeing-dead-aunty-dreams-repeatedly),
well that kind of toned down, OR I CAN CONFIDENTLY SAY STOPPED but something else sprung up now.

this time its sex in the dreams either with my cousins (males_ i’ll come back to this and why the sex choice doesn’t surprise me) or sex with a familiar person but my cousins must be in the dream maybe as passersby (but they must just be in the dreams, their faces must be registered in one way or another).

this is so almost an everyday occurrence or sometimes once in a week thing. rarely do i wake up and find myself in a pool of my semen but if i recall properly in one of these dreams this has happened.

i will cut long story short, and try to connect my childhood to this. growing up in the early 90s if you read my previous thread, i grew up in my uncles house, they had 4 boys , the eldest was about 16 to 18 and i was about 12 or a little less. i wouldn’t say i enjoyed the freedom of the house, no i didn’t and i lived in fear of most especially my aunty ( now late, the one in the dreams from my previous thread).

so growing up as “all boys”, curiosity led us astray a bit but some stains are never leaving, no matter how hard you scrub.
let me be blunt, because it was a strict home with lack of sex education, awareness or public freedom. we found ourselves experimenting our first sex experience ON OURSELVES ( it was my first, i can vow for myself) but it was always comical and brief but one experience wasn’t, the experience was always very experienced, it was the experience i had with my older cousin. he was very pro i’d say and more cautious of the environment settings when he struck at me. i can’t remember if he penetrated me because we never went that far but he personally wanted to go that far.

THIS IS NOT A PORN MOVIE ( sorry for all that detailing, i just wanted to create an image of what that aspect of my childhood looked like), this is why i really do not join in the game of throat strangling gay people. some of them had a wrong first experience and that stain never went away but again its 50% about choices (is that who you want to be come or you going to fight it).
i say this because fast forward to my teen years, people said i talked and walked like a woman, i didn’t believe this because i didn’t see myself this way. so i fought it and believe me temptations came, ONE i gave in but now all i do is fight, fight, fight everyday because i won’t lie its still hiding somewhere there but its too scared of me to come out, because am so so in control. as we speak a few months ago i’m a proud father and i’m gonna marry my child’s mom when all of this is sorted.
it was a great battle of sexual anxiety before i could sex my first woman because my signals won’t just pick but if you follow my story, u’d know a fighter is writing, so i fought and conquered that too. these days my signals are so erect, i have to switch off most times. you know what i mean by signals. Ok we clear on that i believe.


so back to the dreams, it’s a new episodes., now its sex in the dream with either of my cousins or they just have to be in same dream somehow.



how has my life being in the past 2 years, well i’ll say at a standstill. just enjoying everything i have achieved in my glory days ( which def aren’t over) but things are very slow now unusually. last year was the worst, it was a serious of bad to bad-luck. i have a different new energy now and i believe i can channel and link back to my glory days. just worried about these stupid dreams, so bad i had to block my cousins from seing my WhatsApp updates.


oh before i go….so onetime my uncle ( my late aunts husband who is heavily down with stroke and in a vegetable state, no offence) one time said and i quote,’’we were ignorant…we made a big mistake or we didn’t know what we were doing’’...by 'we', he was referring to him and his wife, apparently they had swayed away from their heavily christian devotion ( PASTOR AND DEACONESS RESPECTIVELY) and tested the waters of the fetish world, for what reason we will never know now because the kids( my cousin) went with their father, far away from home.

i don't know what worked from last time i posted the older/ other topic but am counting on it to work again and so i have shared my story again. i have still never being ti a shrine or a fetish home for personal reasons or any reason. maybe nairalanders prayed for me. so this is why i have shared again.

Sorry about your story and experience brother. My prayers is that God totally delivers you from this situation in Jesus name. You are one of many who are truly in these unfortunate waters, and not just the many armchair readers of articles who glibly insist that homosexuality is only innate and not caused by wrong influence and choices. Or that there's nothing supernatural.
Unfortunately, you are under the influence and manipulations of unclean spirits and faulty foundations. i wish we all had access to sound teachings of the Word of God and godly homes and influence. The people you grew up with brought the devil home and obviously he didn't come to play. He came to steal, kill and destroy. He's made your uncle a vegetable and killed his wife. He's made the children homosexuals and other kinds of deviants and he's hoping to ruin you too. Now you have a child out of wedlock and are at a standstill in life and being drained in the dream. But thank God you're fighting. And you will win. The devil will leave you, but you will also need to leave the devil and clean up your life. God has good plans for you yet and He will help you.