Rejecting,avoiding,condemning or calling me names when i mean it cannot be worse than the misfortunes that have affected me. Bad news everyday from different zones. What is even the use of asking why? I once thought there's a being to regard as the Supreme Being but i am still disappointed. Maybe you have been offended by me but i wonder how to describe my dissatisfaction about God. that i also seek help from people that believe in God only shows i have unavoidably given up.anyways, atheism is not paradise. the absence of the faith never guarantees peace. well, i cannot take out my brain and question it. i honestly do not know how to explain offline to most people that i was a theist without being condemned for it. well,the condemnation only adds to the issue. as for you that says this or that is the way to God or the way of God, keep saying it. I cannot predict how your view about God will help me but i know i will never make sense to certain people. I may not personally know them but i know i cannot do a thing about them. Let me say it again having had to pass the night on the roadside,in an open mosque, in an open church, uncompleted buildings , open space or by the side of your house maybe and whoever online or offline still wants me disposed ,and a lot of other shit that i wonder how solvable, there is no God! According to my enemies, i have not suffered anything or i deserve to have the most reasons 4 suicide. Well, billions are still praying. They are still thanking God . i see such as the consequence of a persistent drive among people, an accidental one too, though. however, i have no reason to celebrate when i was born. cursed be the day i will die. i do not know what you see as positivity but i may be wasting my time typing all of this in reality.

You are having a lot of challenge, stay calm. Talk to the people you have left, don't stay depressed or suicidal, there's definitely light at the end of the tunnel. Shalom

lecowas:
You are having a lot of challenge, stay calm. Talk to the people you have left, don't stay depressed or suicidal, there's definitely light at the end of the tunnel. Shalom

my brother's case is also affecting me. in fact my entire family. no family house,my dad jobless,my mum distressed,homeless and tired of carrying so much load here and there. see the place some of my siblings reside,,, i cant explain. they may not say stuff like this. but i should not care. my brother being dragged all over the place,bruised and written off by all except me,from one useless cell to the other, psychiatric bullshit called hospital. we still move all over the street. i miss the cry of 2pac having lost my android. life was a trap to him. it is also twist to me. i have worked in about 20 or more different places including a cursed bar,a depraved car wash,goddamn gutter,furrrk the forest,there was issues like maths and physics, further problems passed around in schools ,still handled cement and blocks,sand,water in between and it goes on with memories of wood and sticks as a 25 yrs old whoever, . 4rk why. there is no rest 4 the poor. justice is also a term 4 rapping. 4rk the future,already. i told the pastor i cant say thank God upon a certain question. Me gonna sleep in tha church till the worst happens. The sorrow is fighting back. May we have no tears 2 waste even as the blood matterz. The talk is a burden. I am enduring pain 2 type this shit. The government is a proof. Benson tried his best 2 convince me but my head was already full of reasons to curse the writers of both the bible and quran. I wish i had space 4 Mary as she stands on ice. Others have seized my head and those who blast me 4 that deserve bullets in a scheme.

I AM THAT I AM.
I AM VERY JEALOUS, THE ONE AND ONLY VERY JEALOUS OMNIPOTENT SPIRIT IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH. MEANING ONLY I CAN COVET, STEAL, KILL AND DO NUMEROUS EVIL VENTURES IN LIFE.
YOU MY CREATURES ARE CREATED SELVES BUT YOU MUST USE YOURSELVES FOR THE GOOD OF ALL OF YOU. LOVE YOURSELVES AS YOURSELVES.
DO GOOD AND LEAVE ALL THE EVIL TO ME.
I AM PLENTIFULLY AROUND ALWAYS.

HellVictorinho6:
my brother's case is also affecting me. in fact my entire family. no family house,my dad jobless,my mum distressed,homeless and tired of carrying so much load here and there. see the place some of my siblings reside,,, i cant explain. they may not say stuff like this. but i should not care. my brother being dragged all over the place,bruised and written off by all except me,from one useless cell to the other, psychiatric bullshit called hospital. we still move all over the street. i miss the cry of 2pac having lost my android. life was a trap to him. it is also twist to me. i have worked in about 20 or more different places including a cursed bar,a depraved car wash,goddamn gutter,furrrk the forest,there was issues like maths and physics, further problems passed around in schools ,still handled cement and blocks,sand,water in between and it goes on with memories of wood and sticks as a 25 yrs old whoever, . 4rk why. there is no rest 4 the poor. justice is also a term 4 rapping. 4rk the future,already. i told the pastor i cant say thank God upon a certain question. Me gonna sleep in tha church till the worst happens. The sorrow is fighting back. May we have no tears 2 waste even as the blood matterz. The talk is a burden. I am enduring pain 2 type this shit. The government is a proof. Benson tried his best 2 convince me but my head was already full of reasons to curse the writers of both the bible and quran. I wish i had space 4 Mary as she stands on ice. Others have seized my head and those who blast me 4 that deserve bullets in a scheme.

So sorry bro, sometimes life's sh*t, we get tired and can't continue, at this time, the best thing is to relax and stop struggling.

When life turns to a quicksand, the more the person struggles the more he drowns. Just relax, cry if u want, it's not a sign of weakness, let out all ur frustrations and shout out loud in a secluded place.

Take a deep breath and remember u're a man, you gotta stand alone, fight alone and conquer. You got this bro

lecowas:


So sorry bro, sometimes life's sh*t, we get tired and can't continue, at this time, the best thing is to relax and stop struggling.

When life turns to a quicksand, the more the person struggles the more he drowns. Just relax, cry if u want, it's not a sign of weakness, let out all ur frustrations and shout out loud in a secluded place.

Take a deep breath and remember u're a man, you gotta stand alone, fight alone and conquer. You got this bro

u are worth praise bro ,this is wise bro, means u also think deep bro, may u find similar understanding when the storm hits u bro.

At least lecowas knows i fight alone