Life has been unfair with me.
To start with, I'm HND graduate since 2015 with one of the best result in my department & completed my youth service in 2016.
I've learnt some CAD and design software over the years and up till now I'm jobless.
The job I'm doing now earns me 30k monthly which I'll use #700 daily as tfare & now that subsidy has been removed, I spent 1k daily as tfare.
I'm base in Ibadan and I've been looking around for job all around the 36 state including fct but no job is coming.
People will say I should do business but where will the capital come from?
I've a kid and family to take care of.
My parent choose me among my siblings due to my brillance to go to higher institution maybe I'll be d one to help others but it seems they're all wrong.
I don't want to commit suicide so I won't be blame for killing myself but if my life has been like this since 2016, I just wish to sleep and never to wake. I'm losing my mind
I don't care if my kid, wife or other family members will be affected of my dismiss. I just want to leave this world coz I don't see clear path of the future.
I've done a lot of jobs that I don't wish my enemy to do but going in debt and no savings (from hand to mouth).
People might think I'm trying to seek attention but no, I've tried all my best and I felt no sign for a better future.
No help from anywhere. Even tried to get labour job at any construction site but couldn't see one. Even though I had skills in civil engineering jobs but I don't just know why my life is like this.
Tears rolling from my eyes as right now I don't have #200 in my accts
God take me, I'm lossing my mind

Take it easy on yourself bro 😞😞😞

Aside what you studied at the polytechnic,
what other skill(s) did you acquire?

I feel u bro, be strong the break through is just around the corner, that's y life is throwing it's last jab at you. Mark my words today

I wish you what you wish yourself

wentroublecomes:
Life has been unfair with me.
To start with, I'm HND graduate since 2015 with one of the best result in my department & completed my youth service in 2016.
I've learnt some CAD and design software over the years and up till now I'm jobless.
The job I'm doing now earns me 30k monthly which I'll use #700 daily as tfare & now that subsidy has been removed, I spent 1k daily as tfare.
I'm base in Ibadan and I've been looking around for job all around the 36 state including fct but no job is coming.
People will say I should do business but where will the capital come from?
I've a kid and family to take care of.
My parent choose me among my siblings due to my brillance to go to higher institution maybe I'll be d one to help others but it seems they're all wrong.
I don't want to commit suicide so I won't be blame for killing myself but if my life has been like this since 2016, I just wish to sleep and never to wake. I'm losing my mind
I don't care if my kid, wife or other family members will be affected of my dismiss. I just want to leave this world coz I don't see clear path of the future.
I've done a lot of jobs that I don't wish my enemy to do but going in debt and no savings (from hand to mouth).
People might think I'm trying to seek attention but no, I've tried all my best and I felt no sign for a better future.
No help from anywhere. Even tried to get labour job at any construction site but couldn't see one. Even though I had skills in civil engineering jobs but I don't just know why my life is like this.
Tears rolling from my eyes as right now I don't have #200 in my accts
God take me, I'm lossing my mind

fast for 3 days n thank God later

Oluromantic:
I wish you what you wish yourself

U don't need to wish me, I've already wish myself so keep Ur F**Mouth shut

Learn a profitable skill...

Depression is real, especially involving no cash and no expections.
I fight depression for their good years before i overcome it.
But i will advice you to not give up things will change, i know some times you think the world is against you, no' it is the normal phase of life. Passing through different experiences make you stronger and understand life more better. Pls dont give.

Using N700 for transport to work within Ibadan, before subsidy removal is a lie,tell us the exact place you live and work. Those Ibadan cab charges N50,N100 and N150 for T- fares, for very long distances.
Liar,you spend N700 x 22 days= N15,400 for TP in a month,out of N30,000, you leave on N14,600 a month? Dey play

Greatzeus:
Using N700 for transport to work within Ibadan, before subsidy removal is a lie,tell us the exact place you live and work. Those Ibadan cab charges N50,N100 and N150 for T- fares, for very long distances.
Liar,you spend N700 x 22 days= N15,400 for TP in a month,out of N30,000, you leave on N14,600 a month? Dey play

Well, i don't need to exchange words with u. U can call me a lair, well that's Ur own view. If u know Ibadan well, you'll know Ibadan is big enough for you to spend 1k on tfare.
Do u know adegbayi Iyana agbala and you know Jericho.
If I lie, may I not find peace.
Even that #700, I'll even have to support it with treaking.
Sometimes it's #800 even b4 subsidy
U don't have to call people lairs if you don't understand what they are passing through
Coz you're lucky in life doesn't mean everybody received such grace.
Have a nice day

wentroublecomes:

U don't need to wish me, I've already wish myself so keep Ur F**Mouth shut

Lol. Frustrated fellow

Oluromantic:

Lol. Frustrated fellow

Yea. I'm more frustrated than you could ever think of.
When you start going through what I'm facing, by den you'll commit suicide
Good day

Thanks to all who have been encouraging me. I've tried to encourage myself over the years but I think I'm losing this battle already.
Fedup of life totally

Bros kindly be closer to your God ,believe in him that he can turn around your life to be prosperous.

Don't commit suicide because suicide is never an option

Kindly take life easy

Hmmm

wentroublecomes:
Life has been unfair with me.
To start with, I'm HND graduate since 2015 with one of the best result in my department & completed my youth service in 2016.
I've learnt some CAD and design software over the years and up till now I'm jobless.
The job I'm doing now earns me 30k monthly which I'll use #700 daily as tfare & now that subsidy has been removed, I spent 1k daily as tfare.
I'm base in Ibadan and I've been looking around for job all around the 36 state including fct but no job is coming.
People will say I should do business but where will the capital come from?
I've a kid and family to take care of.
My parent choose me among my siblings due to my brillance to go to higher institution maybe I'll be d one to help others but it seems they're all wrong.
I don't want to commit suicide so I won't be blame for killing myself but if my life has been like this since 2016, I just wish to sleep and never to wake. I'm losing my mind
I don't care if my kid, wife or other family members will be affected of my dismiss. I just want to leave this world coz I don't see clear path of the future.
I've done a lot of jobs that I don't wish my enemy to do but going in debt and no savings (from hand to mouth).
People might think I'm trying to seek attention but no, I've tried all my best and I felt no sign for a better future.
No help from anywhere. Even tried to get labour job at any construction site but couldn't see one. Even though I had skills in civil engineering jobs but I don't just know why my life is like this.
Tears rolling from my eyes as right now I don't have #200 in my accts
God take me, I'm lossing my mind

Hmmmn my brother I would have advised you or probably even send something to your account because I'm naturally generous, but we're in the same boat. I even tried the suicide sef but e no work just went through terrible pains but I'm still here. Let's keep living one day at a time maybe God will answer our prayers someday coz I don pray tire. It's well.

I can see how ambitious you are and how u have tried to make impact on yourself and your future but believe if side A is not working then u can try side B..
Meaning try go and see a prophet or Alfa because sometimes we might have spiritual bondage or obstacle that won't make ur physical world flourish ...
Am speaking from experience 🙏
Peace ✌️

wentroublecomes:
Life has been unfair with me.
To start with, I'm HND graduate since 2015 with one of the best result in my department & completed my youth service in 2016.
I've learnt some CAD and design software over the years and up till now I'm jobless.
The job I'm doing now earns me 30k monthly which I'll use #700 daily as tfare & now that subsidy has been removed, I spent 1k daily as tfare.
I'm base in Ibadan and I've been looking around for job all around the 36 state including fct but no job is coming.
People will say I should do business but where will the capital come from?
I've a kid and family to take care of.
My parent choose me among my siblings due to my brillance to go to higher institution maybe I'll be d one to help others but it seems they're all wrong.
I don't want to commit suicide so I won't be blame for killing myself but if my life has been like this since 2016, I just wish to sleep and never to wake. I'm losing my mind
I don't care if my kid, wife or other family members will be affected of my dismiss. I just want to leave this world coz I don't see clear path of the future.
I've done a lot of jobs that I don't wish my enemy to do but going in debt and no savings (from hand to mouth).
People might think I'm trying to seek attention but no, I've tried all my best and I felt no sign for a better future.
No help from anywhere. Even tried to get labour job at any construction site but couldn't see one. Even though I had skills in civil engineering jobs but I don't just know why my life is like this.
Tears rolling from my eyes as right now I don't have #200 in my accts
God take me, I'm lossing my mind

Do yahoo or rituals

Oluromantic:

Lol. Frustrated fellow

Does kicking someone who's already down makes you feel better?

You're the type of politicians we have in Nigeria who're completely out of phase with the people's sufferings

wentroublecomes:


Yea. I'm more frustrated than you could ever think of.
When you start going through what I'm facing, by den you'll commit suicide
Good day

please be strong bro. Trust me I understand everything. Don't kill yourself please. Consider your family and love ones. As I'm speaking to you bro, i don't have one naira to my name. That's how really bad it is for me. Yes, it's normal to feel so sad I understand, but don't consider taking your life. No condition is permanent bro. There are lots of people out there going through similar situation like ours. We shall all smile with time. Please don't give birth to any other child for now, until things get better.

Please don't kill yourself.

It's crazy out here . Wait till you hear my story

Thanks to everyone. I appreciate your word of encouragement

wentroublecomes:
■ Life has been unfair with me.To start with, I'm HND graduate since 2015 with one of the best result in my department & completed my youth service in 2016. I've learnt some CAD and design software over the years and up till now I'm jobless. The job I'm doing now earns me 30k monthly which I'll use #700 daily as tfare & now that subsidy has been removed, I spent 1k daily as tfare. I'm base in Ibadan and I've been looking around for job all around the 36 state including fct but no job is coming.
People will say I should do business but where will the capital come from? I've a kid and family to take care of. My parent choose me among my siblings due to my brillance to go to higher institution maybe I'll be d one to help others but it seems they're all wrong.
■ I don't want to commit suicide so I won't be blame for killing myself but if my life has been like this since 2016, I just wish to sleep and never to wake. I'm losing my mind I don't care if my kid, wife or other family members will be affected of my dismiss. I just want to leave this world coz I don't see clear path of the future. I've done a lot of jobs that I don't wish my enemy to do but going in debt and no savings (from hand to mouth). People might think I'm trying to seek attention but no, I've tried all my best and I felt no sign for a better future.
No help from anywhere. Even tried to get labour job at any construction site but couldn't see one. Even though I had skills in civil engineering jobs but I don't just know why my life is like this. Tears rolling from my eyes as right now I don't have #200 in my acctsGod take me, I'm lossing my mind

1. Are your parent's aware of how you feel about the burden they placed on you? The first step to resolving depression is to let those close to you understand what it is you are in fact dealing with as they are the closest support for you through it all.

2. Please tell your wife to log on to Nairaland and read this out pouring your heart on here so she understands where you are mentally with all the load you seem to be carrying on yourself. Marriage is meant to help ease burdens not serve as extra burdens — two, they say— is better than one. So, if you are carrying it all alone, then something is wrong somewhere, and your wife needs to know.

Greatzeus:
Using N700 for transport to work within Ibadan, before subsidy removal is a lie,tell us the exact place you live and work. Those Ibadan cab charges N50,N100 and N150 for T- fares, for very long distances.
Liar,you spend N700 x 22 days= N15,400 for TP in a month,out of N30,000, you leave on N14,600 a month? Dey play

Many of you are just so foolish! How well do you know Ibadan for you to think you cannot spend 700 on transport. And why are you calculating his expenses for him like he didn't know it, did he ask you for money or something. Just shut the f*** up if you have no meaningful contributions rather than contributing negatively!

wentroublecomes:


Well, i don't need to exchange words with u. U can call me a lair, well that's Ur own view. If u know Ibadan well, you'll know Ibadan is big enough for you to spend 1k on tfare.
Do u know adegbayi Iyana agbala and you know Jericho.
If I lie, may I not find peace.
Even that #700, I'll even have to support it with treaking.
Sometimes it's #800 even b4 subsidy
U don't have to call people lairs if you don't understand what they are passing through
Coz you're lucky in life doesn't mean everybody received such grace.
Have a nice day

Stay positive bro!
Don't mind that fool cos he doesn't know what he is talking about, i live in Ibadan so i know how much transportation cost. Even the 1k sef cannot take you to a far distance.
Hang in there and everything will be alright soonest.

Take it easy bro. Honestly, you are just a victim of a failed system and it's not your fault. Don't be surprised some people with the so called jobs are not far better but they can take care of basic needs. Remember many factors give (undue) advantage to others you see flourishing not just hardwork or academic success. But there is God who can help in an unfair system. I can only pray things get better for you bro. Please, don't do the unthinkable.🙏

akanfe30:
■ Take it easy bro. Honestly, you are just a victim of a failed system and it's not your fault. Don't be surprised some people with the so call jobs are not far better but they can take care of basic needs. Remember many factors give (undue) advantage to others you see flourishing not just hardwork or academic success. But there is God who can help in an unfair system. I can only pray things get better for you bro. Please, don't do the unthinkable.🙏

Stop lying to him!

The system is not to blame for his parents burdening him in the way they did. The system is not to blame for his talking on the responsibility of a family of his own on top of it all. Let's start telling ourselves the truth.

Kobojunkie:
Stop lying to him!

The system is not to blame for his parents burdening him in the way they did. The system is not to blame for his talking on the responsibility of a family of his own on top of it all. Let's start telling ourselves the truth.

I chose to ignore the family part because with 30k he cannot take good care of himself let alone others. Maybe you did not read the Op is searching for job. A working system offers profitable employment for skilled people and reasonable minimum wage.

akanfe30:
■ I chose to ignore the family part because with 30k he cannot take good care of himself let alone others.
■ Maybe you did not read the Op is searching for job. A working system offers profitable employment for skilled people and reasonable minimum wage.

OP mentioned the fact of his parents because that burden is a part of the problem he believes he living under. Ignoring it is ignoring OPs major issue.

2. OP is depressed, and the reason for his depression goes beyond job searching. If he didn't have any of the burdens he listed on his mind, he would be as disturbed as he sounds here.

Kobojunkie:
OP mentioned the fact of his parents because that burden is a part of the problem he believes he living under. Ignoring it is ignoring OPs major issue.

2. OP is depressed, and the reason for his depression goes beyond job searching. If he didn't have any of the burdens he listed on his mind, he would be as disturbed as he sounds here.

You achieved one thing so far here, and that's making me go through the post again but nothing has changed. Are you saying these two points of yours are the root cause of everything? Seriously, he should abandon a family where he was appointed to go to school? Remember his nuclear family also depend on the 30K. I hope you would not come back to ask me the definition of poverty. Maybe you haven't seen where people have enough to make impact even in their communities or you are just one of the lucky few that are indifferent to the plight of others.

akanfe30:
■ You achieved one thing so far here, and that's making go through the post again but nothing has changed. Are you saying these your two points of yours are the root cause of everything? Seriously, he should abandon a family where he was appointed to go to school? Remember his nuclear family also depend on the 30K. I hope you would not come back to ask me the definition of poverty. Maybe you have nothing seen where people have enough to make an impact even in their community or your are just one of the lucky few that are indifferent to the plight of others.

OP isn't trying to make an impact on his community but simpl. He is struggling with the burden that he carries. If he got a job that paid him 30K, his situation and dilemma would likely not be changed in any way because what he needs is more than a job at this point.